Watch this show on the 2nd day of CNY. With ed, mavis, kel and estee. Not a bad show. Abit slow. But I dunno why I find it ok.
After the show Went over to Lor 1 for drink n prata And went over to my place For another chatting session
So so.. What had we talk at the pool side.
Men need enough rest. Which will not affect his mind sub-consciously As it will affect his mind. Thus disturbing his rest. So when he grab for more rest. In turn he was late for appointment So he had to rush to the appointment. Rush=Speed In speeding it results to fine. Or even modding car to make it more power. Or changing to a better car.
So to conclude men need rest. Let them have enough rest It save up more money. So why let some timing affect it. Rest well.
Roger so far..
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Blame it on oneself | Friday, January 27, 2006
*Blame it on oneself*
Why in this world. People like to push faults. Pushing to some innocent people. And not knowing faulting ownself.
WTF. Thought of this topic when Im trimming my hair for CNY. This very 'friend' of ours makes the blood boils. Deep down in every one heart. Again some stupid relationship stuffs. Which had worsen just because of our team. Ya the team of Xiongdi.
Points to take note: 1. Where in the hell had we requested expensive gifts from our dear friend. 2. We are drivers who dun speed. 3. We never encourage anyone to spend, even though me n ed like to dare each other. 4. We never even attempt to sour relationships.
But but... Since you can talk behind him. Rubbishing all faults to his friends. Think about ownself.
Maturity 1. Doesnt mean that saving money mean mature. Lotsa kids already had this habit while young. Be it for their studies or marriage in the future. Then alot of kids would be deem mature.
2. If you deem that maturity doesnt come with age. But through the experiences that had been encountered. You are just speaking of ownself. If there is something isnt right. The problem should be solved early. Why delay?? Or just being afraid to be left on the shelves.
3. Preparing to get married considered mature?? Come on... Please wake up from your 'kuku' mindset. 1. Ed and mavis, one not in working society then how to prepare. 2. Junjie and grace, saving up money before thinking of going another step. 3. Kel and Estee, both still studying. 4. Han, Ben, James still single. Perhaps we are not up to the level yet? Just because we haven went through the process. F*** U. What makes you think that ed isnt mature enough. Just because he isnt making any plan. Come on... do you know ed?
4. Grows with you. Since you can make such comments on his friends. Then I dont see you as been mature. U Being in the working society for damn long years. If you feel that we are just a bunch of kids. Why do you choose to go into it. A relationship with our friend. Who doesnt enjoy the company of friends?
Ya.. Men do need a life partner. He still need a bunch of friends behind him In times of anything. If you think that men only need a life partner. Live and died with her. Then you are too possessive. Or perhaps you are just thinking we are influencing his mind.
This is the very first time that I blog wif hatred. Stupid 'kuku' Spoils everyone mood.
Is she just playing our minds.. Makes our heart boils. So we talk to our friend on this matter. So that.
Option. 1. our friend break up with her. So that she can get her new better guy.
2. see what my friend choose. as he choose her and rubbish off our talk. means he is 100% for her which we will lose our friend
Stupid right.. Actually we wouldnt care much. Since she step on our tails. And anger ME. So I vent my frustration here. For every one to see.
Why do the GOD had to bring her to XVI Damn it. Just causing troubles. Inflicting pains. Anyway I feel that she SUCKS to core.
For what I can say. Dont push the fault to others. See it yourself.
Roger so far..
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Pink Christmas.. | Wednesday, January 25, 2006
For those who never see before... The one and only Pink Christmas.
Pinky Celebration....
Pinky Food...
Pink Brothers..
Sorry for being so late in posting some pics of pink christmas. Just receive the photos not long ago..
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The groups from DE..
The Guys having a pose.
Haiyen, Mr Tan and me with our project.
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Backdating | Tuesday, January 24, 2006
*Backdating*
It has been a stressful week for the past. Because of the SPinnovex. So it has left with me junks of tutorials. Which has been backdated for a long time. Now really feeling tired. Still got to completed it before the CNY.
Lotsa backdating.. still can blog. Blogging seem better then doing tutorials. Perhaps its the only way to release stress.
Been a nice guy for too long wouldnt bring me far. I should change my way sooner or later. Anyway Life is Short.. rite. So Play hard. Good guy win no girl. So might as well go all out and enjoy. Perhaps this will be one of the option. Since there wasnt any heart in me anymore. Then just go and play lor. Whocares rite. This isnt backdating, just that Im outdated.
Roger so far..
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 1:18 am
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Giving Up | Sunday, January 22, 2006
*Giving Up*
Giving up is perhap the easiest way out. It wouldnt hurt any longer. It might be one of the toughest decision. But the day will come sooner or later. An answer will be heard anyway.
In the ability to predict what is coming. Why not just stop before the truth reaches. Which might hurt even more then.
It is always blessed to be love and to love. If you are giving all of your love. But there isnt any coming back. Then just give it up. Not worth hurting much more later.
So to give and you will receive. If you doubt any chance of receiving. Then give it up. As you wouldnt receive any.
Got it..
Roger so far..
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Its all over | Saturday, January 21, 2006
*Its all over*
Finally the SPinnovex had came to an end. I bet all teams will feel tired from these 3 days. Even though my team just got a bronze award. It wasnt too bad for me. As alot of lecturers thought that my model will get gold award. But too bad the gold and silver award went to. LTA-linked projects. So got to settle for bronze then. Perhaps people view at project differently. As the more important things is getting the correct grade For my Final Year Project. No lesser than an A.
Now back to normal life again. Got to rush back all the tutorials and projects again. Kinda tired. Anyone willing to do my stuffs.
Roger so far..
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 9:16 pm
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*My Birthday Wish*
For a long time, It seem that we will try to get something Which the birthday personnel would like. Of cos it is good for all the xiong di of ours. As we had been lacking of ideas what to get for them. In which we organise something interesting, Asking the B.boy to tell anyone what he would like, Then we will try to raise the money or get the present for him. If the present is over-budget, B.boy will try and top up the value by himself.
So this very custom will only stay in this group of 7, G7. Which consist of Ed, JJ, Ben, WL, Kel, HC, JS. In the end for 2005, we still 'otang' a lot of present. That isnt very good.
Why not tell us all your B.day wish or what you would like. Of cos not ridiculous type which is impossible to get. Just something which will be within the limit. If not there will be ideas like... Getting Car, House, Furniture, Air-tickets and much more.
It is blessed to give and share. We would not mind giving. But we do not like to be forced. Forcing would cause us to react. No matter what good thing is for us. We will oppose to all ideas. This is why. Never ever command us to do anything. You do so. Then good luck to you. We would not do anything nasty. Even though we are just nasty with word. We dont mean any harm. Just that we want to vent out our frustration.
Year by year We had matured. Year by year We earn our living. Year by year Things are more expensive. Year by year We plan for future. Year by year More things come in. Year by year Life changes.
So never expect the same thing all the time. If you want style. Want good gifts to your liking. Prepare to give first. Before you think of receiving any. Give by yourself. Not by others Got it??
Roger so far..
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 10:58 am
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Spinnovex has Started | Friday, January 20, 2006
*Spinnovex has Started*
Finally the day has come. Most of us had anxiously awaited for. To showcase our final year project model. Reach sch around 9am to final touch up the model. Not too bad everything went well. Except for the break loose of pipe which cause a mess. Took this pic with my one and only group mate for all the hardwork that had been put in for months of failure. Indeed hardwork do come sweet when praises came flying in. Anyway this spinnovex is from 19th Jan to 21st Jan. Do come and take a look when you got the time. Thats all for the work for today. Tomorrow, Fri got to do a small presentation of my model. After that on Sat VIP visiting and later prize presentation. Which will conclude the end of the spinnovex at the SAT.
Roger so far..
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The Ten Commandments of Broken Love | Wednesday, January 18, 2006
*The Ten Commandments of Broken Love*
Verse no. one - You give your true love to the guy. If you don't love the guy. Then find one that you TRUELY like. If you are considering if you like him now, you better not. As if you love him, you'll know it right away. This will not lead you to a broken heart.
Verse no. two - Don't be afraid To let a good catch go. No matter how good a catch he is, Or how nice a guy he is or how wonderful he treats you. If you don't love him, your relationship is doom anyway. So why bother to even try? Cos you do not even ever love him before
Verse no. three - Never doubt your past. All you ex-bfs, ex-suitors, ex-whatever are all OUT. If they are good enough, they wouldn't even be in the EX list. Ex-bfs, you've given your best shot, Don't start feeling guilty and think you could've done better. The point is, you've tried and that's it, move on. Ex-suitors, even worse. You've picked your ex-bf from that lot. He got to be the best right among them for you to pick him right? Why go back to choose the second best when the best already failed? So if there is someone new waiting. Go ahead, give your all to him. And dont ever look back
Verse no. four - Don't ever commit yourself to be with him. If you don't think you want to marry him. Always ask yourself why bother to build a relationship With your heart, your time and your effort. Just to tear it down with your own hands in the future.
Verse no. five - Never give false hope, signal or hints. You will stir up more troubles later. You cause more heartbreaks and more suicide case. You make him climb high up. And letting him come down free fall. So if you dont intend to start, please say early.
Verse no. six - Love him for who he is. No matter what bad habits which you dont like. However you had choosen him So never expect him to kick away his old habits. And love him as who he is. Never treat him as a spare tyre. If you don't think you want to marry him as he is now But want to give him sometime to change, Then don't waste your time and his time. He probably won't change and even if he did, He wouldn't be happy.
Verse no. seven - Giving him a chance. No matter how broken hearted you have been. When there is someone who is willing to give you his heart. Take it, for sure he wouldnt break it again. Let him help you cure your wounds. Since he is willing to wait for your smile. Why not give him this very chance for it to blossom. If you feel the previous is irreplaceable. If you miss this, it will be total gone without even starting it.
Needing another few more verse.
Some copied frm hancheng's blog.. So true
Roger so far..
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 9:35 pm
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*Chinese New Year*
Very soon, Chinese New Year (CNY) will arrive very soon. From 29th Jan to 31st Jan. It would be another great days for visiting all relatives. But way before celebrating this day. There is alot of preparation works to be done. Spring cleaning, getting new stuffs and clothes. There are so many things that we need to see to.
It has been a part of chinese custom. Which every youngster will look forward to. It will be the days for them to collect red packets. Perhaps it will be the official time for everyone to gamble. Big 2, Blackjack and even mahjong. So many type of games to play.
First came the Chinese New Year eve. Where all family members will come gather for dinner. After the dinner people will start to flock over to Chinatown. To see fireworks or can say to pick cheap goods. Which then all will proceed home not to rest. But to stay up as long as possible. As it is a belief that the children will add more hours to their parent's life.
First Day on New Year. No black colour shirt. It will be best to don a red colour outfit. For red in chinese means luck. That is why it is the most favoured colour during new year.
Going to relatives' place will tire you off easily. So CNY are being set for 15 days. Nah.. just lame. As the CNY follow the lunar calendar. Thats why it is 15 days.
However as you grow older. CNY seem to be the same as other public holidays. Just another 2-3 days for you to rest. So if there is no one to spice up the day. Then you would be probably sleeping at home.
Come on think of more ideas to spend the day. If not after visiting your relatives. There will not be much things to do. Fully utilise the time available.
Idea by estee. If anymore things to add in. Leave a msg.
Roger so far..
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 7:39 pm
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As what hancheng has said. The beginning of 2006 seem to crash our 8 characters. Everyone of us seem to get something bad. So lets hope that later part of 2006 will turn better. Yeah, new year then we got to bring in new blood. But where to search for new blood to join our activities. Once we thought there will be some coming in. And in the end, all gone like a midst.
Perhaps we are damn suay. Attached personnel got problem. Singles cant complete their projects. Haiya dun want to say anymore.
As we, the group of Xiong Di has been label as Championship Winning Team of been a group of evil friends. Giving nicks to people. Making them feel digust when with us. Teaches each other incorrect stuffs. Speeding becomes a habit for everyone. Drink and drive also becoming popular.
Anyway we are just a bunch of idoits who spolit their relations. Come on, we have been together as friends for tons of years. Even we may not be related in blood. It is just that we shared common thinking. We had been around each other, supporting and pushing each other. So in what sense had we done wrong?? Unless you say you have a better group of buddies for him. Which you feel he might grow better in person with them. Then please go ahead. We had known each other way before any had known. Of cos we do not know their whole life as you do. But there are some little habits which we had seen and knew. You might have knew it and if he cant change, it shall be your fault. Not ours !! As we had actually spend less time with those attached.
We had already made changes. We had already left someone out from the protocol. Which our friend at time distant apart. He is not able to receive the messages for our event. However for me I dont think I will be able to withstand. Cannot join my friends for so many activities. Even though Sept to Nov 2005 I never felt missed. Perhaps there is someone more important then. Since Im still single so cant give really full details on it. If not I will tend to side to one side.
*this story might relate to someone. however 99% can choose to accept it. if you are the 1% then treat what you read as rubbish then.
Roger so far..
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Show me The Money | Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Living in this practical world. Nearly everything we do, Money is the factor. You might be just wondering why. Every minute and seconds you spend on doing nothing. Mean you have been wasting your money away.
So you see.. Why you work It because of money. So that you can buy a house with the money. Which enable you to rest for the day. Before working again tomorrow.
Then if you got work then you got the money to eat. So to survive the day of hard work given. And so to rest at the house you buy and carry on the work tml.
With more money, You groom yourself. To look presentable for your job. So to earn money for your meals. And paying installment for your house.
So in actual fact this money thing can link n link. Up to what you would like to input into your money. In other words, it means that everyone got to work.
no work = no money = nothing. Understand.
This work start since you are young. Unless you are someone who dont cry at that time.
During Childhood. You cried and your mum will feed you with milk. Clean off your shits. You are actually working. Shredding tears if your work then.
During school times. Study hard. Pass every paper for rewards later. Is also something that hard work had to be put in. If there is any need for spare cash. Then work as part time waiter.
In working society. Work to survive. Easy as that.
In adulthood. Work for your partner Your child, your house and your car.
In old age. Work by looking after grandchild. So that Son will feed you.
And the cycle carry on. What I wanna say is that everyone has to work. No matter what happen. Perhaps it does not apply to everyone. But it is very common now.
Roger so far..
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 12:40 pm
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Who Blog? I Blog. U Blog. She Blog. He Blog. They Blog. We Blog. Gay Blog. Les Blog.
Ya full of shit. Cos having no ideas how to start this blog. Blogging has becoming a part of nearly everyone life. It is a place for everyone to share their views. Of cos not to anything that shouldnt be here. Blogs does at times take up much of one's time. So for someone as free as me. Then I think he/she can blog at any moment. Some blog are full of rubbish. Some full of poem. Some say feelings. Some vent their anger. Thats why blogging is still ever popular.
In the past, you wrote a diary, kept to your bedside cabinet. Not wanting anyone to take a peek at it. However the 'in' thing now is to have a blog. Where you can share virtually anything online. Share your feelings, your thoughts. Let the words do the talking, when it cant come off your mouth. However at times words does not be the best way. It might at times bring more trouble, more heartache. However, it will be nice if its as below.
Just like the Boyzone - Words.
Smile, an everlasting smile, A smile can bring you near to me Don't ever let me find you wrong. Cause that would bring a tear to me This world has lost it's glory Lets start a brand new story Now my love You think that I don't even mean A single word I say...
It's only words And words are all I have To take your heart away
Talk, in everlasting words And dedicate them all to me And I will give you all my life I'm here if you should call to me You think that I don't even mean A single word I say
This world has lost it's glory Let's start a brand new storyNow, my love You think that I don't even mean A single word I say...
Why in this world men, and no not say women Are so difficult to understand. Perhaps everyone has a complicated heart. Why being truthfully, they guard against you. So tell me what should a man do. No matter how much effort he placed into it. It will just seem like he is fooling himself. To try concluding an answer from someone.
Thats why now in the present 21st century. Where man and woman is so called said to be equal. Then man should be able to shred his tears. No to withold any of it, which causes broken heart. And leading to suicide. Look at the number of sky diving case at tekong and other camps. Mens' heart are fragile too. It can also be broken by woman. Even it is said that man will break woman heart.
Ber henti.. If I keep linking all stories. I dont think I will sleep today. Will carry on tomorrow..
Roger so far..
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Kind of Tired | Monday, January 16, 2006
Feeling so much pressure and tireness for the upcoming spinnovex. How I wish this day can come fast enough. Now I having to prepare more and more stuffs for it. From doing model to writing report. Now I got to do the powerpoint presentation. And I got to do a 5 minutes presentation in front of so many expert. For the grading of our project. I know my project will at least get a bronze. But who wants?? Cos those in the spinnovex will get it. I want at least a silver. Hopefully I can smoke my way through on that day.
This for venting part of my frustration..
Roger so far..
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Buddies | Sunday, January 15, 2006
What has this world been turning to. Every thing that has happen in 2006 seems wrong. What a way to start 2006 in this fashion. Kinda funny for everyone of my buddies. Since 1st Jan bad things happen. Seem like alot of things had went wrong from start.
How come this kind of things can happen to. A group of nice and friendly guys. Whose aim is to lame, crap when together. And at times talk about ideas and share infomation.
Perhaps we are too close to each other. No matter how hard or difficult the situation is. We will make our time for anyone. Just like stabbing knife on our heart, quote from hancheng. Cos this brotherhood had been build so many years ago. Thats why any problem we faced, we will get help. Any slient moblisation, we will make our effort there. As this kind of brotherhood will not die off. No hard feelings will happen in this group, If there is any just voice it out.
Because of such bonding, there bond to be some misery. Not within us but to some others. Leaving one out of the group proves difficult. Lots of info at times cant reach him. Which distant him away.
Anyway we are just very simple. If anyone got nothing to do on any particular day. Just send out the message. State time state place. Whoever with the idea can just go ahead. This is why we can nearly meet everyday in a week. Or perhaps nothing for another week.
Which might just happen when, or maybe... eg below. Mon, Edward, for dinner at Bugis Tue, Junjie jio tennis at my place. Wed, Ben for dinner at marina square Thurs, Kelvin for movie at Suntec. Friday, Hancheng jio clubbing at Double O Sat, James jio mahjong at junjie place. Sunday depends see who jio. This might happen together in just 1 week. Some may involve in a few. Or some in all. This make us seeing the whole group for so many days.
Can this be solved? Possible.. Just dont go for the program.. So simple right.
So this what buddies are for. Cheers for the Xiong Di.
Roger so far..
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 9:34 pm
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How I wish, I would have a chance ever to buy this for the someone. And I dont think this very day will come for me so soon. Perhaps GOD want me to save up the money for better usage. If girls deserve flowers then Guys will deserve cars. Anyway this flower is not meant for the someone. Sunflower will be the chosen flowers for that day to come. So giving flowers, to give real stuffs or artificial flowers. Real ones fresh at start the dies off. Artificial which is fake and lasting. Then there is a saying. Real flowers can last only for awhile, which also implement that the love is shortlived. Artificial saying that the love is fake.
So what the hell in this world to give flowers. Just a waste of money right. Anyway I just trying to post a picture to my blog. And meanwhile helping my friend to promote her business. Getting flowers for your special one. I can help you get good lobang.
Testing 1 2 3
Roger so far
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 2:15 am
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So what the hell in this world time is so precious? Thats because its non reversible. No matter how much money it can be bought with. As what I had previously said. Man can only live up to 70 years. Making him to have a total of:
70 x 365 x 24 = 613200 hrs.
In which it is said that 1/3 of the time you spent sleeping. = 204400hrs 1/8 of the time having meals = 76650hrs Nearly half of your time are gone doing this. Time are not left with too much. As 1/3 of the time you spend on studying or working. Which left only 5hrs per day.
So how to spend this precious 5hrs of everyday? Some people slack at home.. Some went out with friends.. Some went for enrichment.. Some spend it with family.. Come on, 5 hrs isnt too much. Thus it has to be cleverly utilised. How to use it is up to onself. I would not teach so much here.
However, In this short 5 hrs you can do something of good quality together. Oops, I forgotten to deduct something else. Travelling time which takes up about another 2 hrs. So it shall be left with 3 hrs. Now its only 3 hrs instead of the 5 hrs said initially. Where got enough now. 3hrs of quality time. What can be done at this short time. Movie, Kopi session.. Nothing much can be done..
Racking brains everyday to squeeze out nice program. I think this will age oneself easily. The best way to spend it fruitfully is to be happy. Once you have any negative thoughts. No matter how good the day is. It will still turn bad.
Dun keep harping on the Sian and Why topic. At times because of tireness from the 8 hrs of work. Might tend to spoil the precious 3 hrs. So why meet and use the time. How about using it more usefully. Rest at home should be the best way out. If not ask your group of buddies. To talk, crap, stab and laugh the 3 hrs. It would probably make yourself better.
Every day, every hour and every minutes Passes like nobody business. If spending time thinking and waiting. Why not just use it your own way. You control the time and plan it. And never let the time control you.
Remember Life is short. Play hard.. Use your time meaningfully..
Roger so far..
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Is GOD Fair | Saturday, January 14, 2006
So can anyone out there tell me if GOD is fair. Be it Christ, Buddha, Allah or any other GOD. Why in this world they create such a place for us. Nothing seem fair to everyone.
Why would they create Cancer? Which cause misery to so many people. Why would they create illness? Which cause sickness to people.
Why would they take away something from someone. Some were without Sight, deaf or even speechless.
So no one they created are real perfect. There bound to be something missing from their life.
They had made the evil guys to enjoy life more. They seem to earn more money. Drive better cars and even have good girls by their side.
How about the good guys, what they gave them. Make them work the hard way up. Drive 2nd hand or cheap Japanese car. With ugly and fat girl by their side?
Anyway for me, I feel is that. GOD isnt fair. Some examples from my family..
Grandfather, Work and slog his life at his bicycleshop. To provide living for my grandmother and his 7 child. In the end what he got? Stroke, which he suffer since 1993. He cant even enjoy his retirement.
So you see around this world.. There is nothing fair.. You got some. You lose some. And this is LIFE.
Roger so far..
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Plans | Friday, January 13, 2006
So why do people want to make plans. So to enable a smooth road for them down the years.
Why do people draw plans It is for them to bear in mind where they are heading to.
Who are the people that read plans. The Civil Engineers, Quantity Surveyors and much more. This lame for sure.
Ok, get the plan straight.. Anyway Im drawing out the plans for the new shop. The outline of the new shop. Which will be located at Boon Keng Went and saw the shop on Tuesday. There is ample height to raise another floor for storage. Got to fully utilise the whole floor and air space. If not from a shop area of 70sqm to just a mere 50sqm. There wouldnt be enough space to store all stuffs. And the living space at 54 will be of no more at the new place. Means a total of 88sqm lesser. For the storage of all goods. That why need to draw the plan.
However the real stuff come here. If you fail to plan, you plan to fail. Understand..
Dont fight a war when you are low in resources. Before you even engage in the war. You will lose out to yourself. In searching for golds and food. Will be enough to tire you out. Make serious plan 1st. Build up your army 1st. Gain the resources from your fellowman. Got it? That why you got to make serious plan 1st. Before embarking onto the war.
Roger so far.
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A week | Wednesday, January 11, 2006
It has been a week pass new year. How time flies.. It has been a week that my sms had gone down. Since then I had stop my msg to someone. Indeed it was a struggle up front. Just to stop smsing her since downgraded from calling her.
It seems that the world has come to an end for me. But now I'm starting to glue back the bits and pieces of my world. No matter how carefully I mend back the pieces. Theres already cracks in it. Any saviours out there willing to mend the broken world for me.
Cos at 1st I tot I would e the saviour of someone. However I was deeply wrong. The way to save oneself is by your own. If you cant get pass the barrier you will always be there. I was never able to lift up the barrier for someone. I was of no where near. So in the end, I failed as what I thought of becoming. A saviour for someone.
Dun worry, Im ok.. I still have to get on with my life. Just guess that I will remain single. Anyway it has been for the past so many years.. What so bad been single. I just worry about myself. I can show care and concern to all people. My bills will be much cheaper.. My heart will not be a mess... Life will be much simpler.... Live, sleep and eat by myself..... Not bad what..
Come on Ben... Dun kid yourself... How you wish you can have someone... > To celebrate the V.day with. > Be with you in times of troubles. > To share your happiness > Of cos being part of your life.
Too bad.... Life still lives on friends... However Ben is still standing tall.
Roger so far..
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Chit Chats | Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Chit chat = Talk cock = Gossiping = Flaming. The main point for today is the chat carried out. Which happens at Marina Square. The Food court and the kopitam. The chat involves quite a few of us, namely, Ed, mavis, kel, estee, hancheng, yansi and me. Silly chats does indeed brighten up your life.
Cheap and loose is the joke for the day... Does going pubs and knowing more friends is cheap? Then giving them numbers to contact called loose? This topic is indeed questionable. Unless when you are out for a drink. Someone were to ask you for number. Will you chat with her and exchange numbers? Think about it.. Go clubbing and know more friends, Nothing wrong with it what..
Haha, now my topic.. My eyes look nice?? My eyes can generate current? If my precious possession can did such good things. Why I never utilised it before? Perhaps I never intended to use it on anyone. Or maybe my generator never start. Thats why its only low in current.
How come... Two brothers going for Project woodlands Ended in failure?? Projects... what a joke...
James won his 1st game of mahjong. Cheers for him.. His luck has change for the better.
Roger so far..
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 10:28 pm
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So what is it all about getting SICK. Falling sick or what so ever... Ya.. Me, Ben is sick. Not having a sick mind. Plain Sick.. Perhaps indigestions and slight fever. Was resting at home initially. Junjie ask go MS, wanted to go but no strength. Then Kel n Ed suggested SPC. So I had managed to struggle there. Had English breakfast there, its just a cup of tea. For awhile finally made up my mind. Yes.. To vomit. Went into the toilet and wanted to change my mind. Oh goosh, the smell of the toilet sucks.. So vomitted. But after the session, I do feel better again. Only that I find myself a little strengthless. But what I see is that my friends are real friends. Drive me home from Singapore Post. Help me buy drink and getting my warm water. Give me tissue. You know who you are..
Another Sick. Sick and tired at times. For my final year project. Due for Spinnovex next week. So got to add in more stuffs by this friday. Haha.. got to dig out the sands again..
Sick of being lonely. It has been so long that I had been single. So its time for me to do something.
Sick of wasting time. Ya.. waste my time in slacking. Got to buck up once again.
Sick of seeing hypocrites or so call liars Please throw them out of my sight.
So many type of Sick. Dun worry Im not a sicko. No matter how adverse the conditions for me. I will still keep my stands firm. Shall not crumble for minor stuffs. So dun say about project for a month. Let me follow my heart in a month time. If someone is really meant for me. I'll be there.
Roger so far..
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 11:49 am
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Staring in Blank | Sunday, January 08, 2006
*Staring in Blank*
This is what I had been doing for hours before I think of what to write. Out of no where, it seems that I cant write anymore. No more stuffs to write on.
Notice the igallop by OSIM. Think out of the box and you shall get what I wanna say. Crazy to come out with this kind of machine. Seem that this machine is meant for the gals.
Watch a crazy show telecast by channel 8. Loan shark taking opportunity during economic ressesion. Giving out loans, with high interest returns. Plus administrative charges and all sort of fees. Make until so professional. Somemore got lawyer. This kind is call taking opportunity.
Seem like I got to open up my door for options le. Cos Im graduating soon. So can focus on getting someone who will be meant for me. So anyone out there to intro?? Someone of me before you want to recommend. A Diploma Grad soon in march. Penniless. Doesnt drive european car. Dun have big house No credit card So this is Ben that you know. Only $1.50 in my pocket. So which gal would want this kind of guy.
Roger so far..
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 12:07 am
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End of FYP | Saturday, January 07, 2006
*End of FYP*
Yes.. 6 Jan 2006 1700hrs submitted my FYP report. What a relieve for me. I believe everyone feels the same too. One burden has just gone off. But Spinnovex is drawing near. How I wish everything can end fast. Seem that I can start counting down to my test again. Not too bad for my few test results. 79.5, 73, 60.5, 72, 68... Can do much better if I had put in more effort. 2.5hrs of studies for each paper. This kind of results, Good enuff. Shall not ask for too much. Still got one more result not out yet.
If Im not wrong, I will have another 5 weeks of studies. Followed by nearly 3 weeks of test and semester papers. Then I will be out of SP. How I wish this time will come fast. To save me from the misery of sleeping my way through. I've tried and control myself from smsing her. I did it but it was a hard struggle. Who asked me to put in so much into it. Nevermind, I will see the answer for myself in a month time. Will she be the someone whom worth waiting for. Shall wait and see. If she is meant for me and if she does feel my feelings. I believe she appear just abit later. So shall see if there is other fate for me.
Roger so far..
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 1:13 am
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When Will I Quit | Wednesday, January 04, 2006
*When Will I Quit*
Yeah, most of my buddies will know what Im talking about. To resign from the VSC, volunteer police. Actually plan to resign on Aug. Then realised that there is lotsa fun. So delay.. As I still got much time to do it. Then someone came into my life. And make me thinking to quit again. As VSC will take up much of my time. So planned to do so on Dec. Thought that I will have at least a reason to quit. But something occur so I put off the plan. Now its already Jan. Guess that I will wait till April or May to do so. Cos by that time I started working at DLS. So at least I have some little reasons to give.
Or how about when will I quit waiting As what I had said, I want to know my feelings 1st. So I will decide when to quit or not to quit.
When will I quit my bad habits. So what is my bad habit. 1. Slack 2. Sleep in class. 3. Drive with no patience at times. 4. Never give 100% in what I do.
Roger so far..
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 6:33 pm
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Sports-Tennis | Tuesday, January 03, 2006
*Sports-Tennis*
This game, We had managed to play it for 6 weeks. Just that last week was interupted by rain. In the end. Only Junjie and me had been playing all time. Ed clock the less time. Cos he got to accompany gf. But playing sports really shiok. Can enjoy the game and also keep fit. Never ever feel so healthy again. Since the days of cycling and National Service. And now nothing to bother me.. I shall start to train again. Perhaps keeping me busy once again. And keep the affairs of heart out of me. Dun want to think so much liao. If its meant for me. It will come to me eventually. So wouldnt care much liao. Live my own life again. So no more project now.
Roger so far..
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 10:27 pm
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*FYPing*
Down to the final week of the FYP deadline. If cant finish it by this friday. We will be putting our head on the chopping board. Now for my group left with just report and testing. Once completed, we will be waiting for Spinnovex. What is so good to achieve so many things. And there will not be anyone sharing the joy with you. It will seem to be ZERO.
Today got back 2 results for my term test. 79 and 60 So how about the other 4 papers.. Dunno how well I can score for the others. Who cares right. 3hrs of revision only. Can get this kind of results good enough liao. Even though I hope to get better results. But I cant. Cannot concentrate at that time. I had let my feelings overrun my mind. Thats why cannot focus much.
Today being the start of my last and final term in SP. Went to sleep most of the time in lecture. Basically no strength to study. Dunno why.. Perhaps my morale booster had gone?? So I got to recover my own strength again.
Just another 8 more weeks. And I will be graduating. Just get the correct results and go off. Most likely I will not stay on DLS for a long time. Cos the new shop for Dad will be coming soon. Another decision I got to make n take. How I wish I can speak to someone on it. This decision Im going to make will affect greatly on me. So will the someone advise me...
Why is this world changing so much. That makes everyone so hard to be understood.
Feelings towards each other should be natural. It shouldnt be created. However when there isnt any chance to be natural. Then chances should be created for feelings.
Woah what am I writing. Rubbish again. Awaiting for someone to online. Just to come and see my blog. WLL or TGG. Which is wait long long or 'tan gu gu' Nevermind. I will post what I wanted to post. Not totally meant for the someone.
I never know that I can be so emotional at times. Nobody seem to know it. Hard stern look with soft heart in it. Bo pian lah.. Im Ben what. Im still a human with a heart. And its easiest way to drag me down.
For the past 25 years and about 4 months. I had never ever been to gentle to anyone before. Then the someone had cause this change. Super soft tone on fone. Showing care and concern. Never in my world, that I can become so gentle. Haha..
What the use of being a great nice guy. Dun smoke.. so what.. Dun drink.. so what.. Dun gamble.. so what.. Dun flirt.. so what.. Being a nice guy doesnt guarantee happy ending. So why want to become a 100% nice guy. If you will not have a happy ending. How about.. Smoke till lungs turn black Drink till liver spoil. Gamble till bankrupt. Flirt till Aids.. haha lame.. Im not saying that, not able to have a happy ending. Then proceed with these harmful activities Then it will be very wrong to do so.
So. shall stop all this crap and do my report now. If not I will be putting my head on the chopping board. Will not write anymore on feelings stuffs. Just plain topics..
Roger so far..
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 4:47 pm
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*Give me a month*
Dear friends, As stated above. I request for a month. A month of not contacting someone and see hows the feeling like. I know it will be hard. But at least I will know if she is the correct one for me. That is why Im doing it now then later. I want to see if my feelings for her is true. So at least I will know my wait for her will not go wasted. I know her feelings for her ex was so deep. That the scar left there will be everlasting. He is someone whom she had give her whole heart to. Thus it might take very very long time for her wounds to heal. That why I would like to step back abit.
To reaccess my feelings for her. Ever watch the Heavenly sword and dragon sabre? I would want to know if my feelings for her is what. Zhang Wuji is to Zhao Min. The kind of love, where one guy will Be willing to die for the other party. Or perhaps my feeling for her maybe what Zhang Wuji have for: Zhu-er, Xiao zhao or even Zhi ruo.
Cool right, Write feelings can also link to this story. Of cos if my feelings were to be of the same to Zhao Min. I would be there for her. That will be up to her to decide then. If she decided to give up this faithful guy of me then. Then perhaps I will decide what I would do then.
Back to 2nd Jan. Did nothing much. Mahjong at Jj place from 0001 hrs to 0630 hrs Breakfeast from 0645 to 0730 Sleep 0800 to 1200 1230 to 1500 at shop 1501 to 1530 lunch 1600 to 1630 waiting. 1645 to 1800 view cars. then dinner at katong laksa. Game of Risk at my place. and final whistle.
Roger so far.
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 12:14 am
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Friends | Sunday, January 01, 2006
*Friends*
What are friends.. Friends are people whom you know and had ever exchange words. They are the companions who had accompany you in some ways. Some are your classmates, your colleague or your buddies. This topic was discuss at woodlands with Junjie. So in this world how many groups of friends we will have. At least 3 different groups of friends.
1st group, the Hi-bye friends. Never ever keep in contact. When happen to see each other on road Just a causal Hi, At times perhaps exchange of phone numbers, Which never call after that.
2nd group, Distant friends. Mostly your classmates from each level. Just a very small group of people These are the friends who helps you thru the years in different level.
3rd group, Buddies. This group of friends are bond together by special feelings. They had gone thru something similar together. Or perhaps suffered together. This is just a very small groups of friends. They will be with you thru the years in your life.
4th group, The only one. This is the very special one. This friend is someone whom you will share your feelings with. Someone whom you will share your lifestory with. This person from friend which later turn to your partner. This special one will be with you all your life time.
See this grouping up of friends you can see a pyramid.
Get what I mean. You will put piorities on different group.
For me.. Project (some may know who) Edward Kelvin Junjie Hancheng Weili James ITE, Woodsville Pri, Woodsville Sec, A div S&T, Sq 44/00, SP DBPM Those others whom never contact in these groups.
Friends doesnt back stab. They never talk bad of their friend to another party. However my group of friends do backstab. But its for the purpose of discussing on how to change the person. Or sometimes to discuss on the lies he/she had said. This is the way isnt the evil back stabbing. The evil way is that, after your friend had share his/her feelings. With you, and you had know so much of her past. Then you actually spread her mis-doings to other friends. This is evil.
Actually wanted to write this blog after speaking to.. Junjie, Grace and Yansi about friendship. So has came out with this topic. Friends. I know that there is a bible saying if Im not wrong. Love your friends as what they are. Forgive and forget. So can we learn it. I think it will be very hard.
Roger so far..
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 2:36 am
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