2006 arriving soon in just 4 hrs by the time I finish writing. So may all have their wishes fulfil in 2006. Give your best for the 2006 and strive for the best. Blog story will continue if I got any program later. Good Luck everyone
Roger so far.
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Finally | Friday, December 30, 2005
*Finally*
Finally for alot of things I done had completed.
My FYP model is finally up, just need another pack of stones. Got the chance to talk to her. That more important then my FYP.
However my report still got some way to go. And she still a distant apart from me. Perhaps this is my fate. Thats why I do not wish to let go. Cos once this gone, there wont be a second one. This is the truth. And thats how my life will be. I do not really believe in the saying of the priestess. But theres about 90% of the stuffs said are right.
Perhaps I had write too much for her. So theres nothing much for me to write here. However I still can share something else. Other than say feeling stuffs.
I wonder if its concidence. Ed and Kel want Honda Fit or Jazz.. And theres a point of time I also wanted to change to this. As someone like this car, even though her dream car is A class.
Wanted 6680, then found that she want SE fones. But in the end she got 6680 1st. So to get 6680 or N70??
She like to drink and she also can drive. So is it possible that she drink n I drive. Or I drink then she drive. Can compromise 2 parties.
I had once said I would like to find someone who does accountancy. And It really happen that she did accounting.
Warm family, yeah I have one. Even though there will be minor quarrels. But it only last a night. She like family warmth and like big family. I do hope that I can stay with my family after getting married. See this type of girl where to find. She is the one whom will give up her career for her husband. She is willing to take hardship. She is a simple girl. She never ask much.. She do not need a condo, a hdb will be enough. However I want a private housing so she have bigger space. She does not look for 5C in material. However she is looking for 5C in her partner. I know she cant cook well. She still can stir a wok of fried rice. Thats good enough as skills can be learnt. So what she stay far away. Distance doesnt keep 2 people apart. Even if she want to take care of her mum next time. I wouldnt mind. Cos she is her parent. As my private housing has enough room for her too. Haha wishful thinking again.
Ya I do wish... That she stop the activities which is harmful to her life. For a better 2006 ahead for everyone. En bloc for 54 go smoothly. My job will go well. To slim down to >60 and back to total fitness. To change a new HP asap. To save up a sum of money for all purpose. That she had a change of heart.
How to stop Ya how do I stop writing all these stuffs. I know there will be a way.
I know this is lame. Cos. GOD created Adam then created Eve. But for me, He created Her then me. So Im created for her... Goosebumps right.
Roger so far..
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*New Year Resolutions*
2005 will soon pass within this few days. So summarise what meaningful things I had done this year. 2005 had saw me went through my year 2 n 3 of my studies. So 2006 left the last term of my studies in SP. Went overseas with Hancheng to Thailand with his camp mates. 2005 really did nothing much. The most important is that the goal of my life has appeared. That is the someone. Came into my life around August. Perhaps the turning point of my life. Then I was also being offered a contract with DLS. To start work next year april. This the most sensible thing that I had done. News of En bloc break out in Sims Drive, Mean that I will be shifting house soon. A pink christmas celebration at estee place. Drinking session with all the xiong di at double O. I guess most of the time I'm just lazing around.
2006 So what would I want for 2006. 1st and foremost piority is the someone. 2nd awaiting for my new job at DLS. 3rd En bloc of 54 and shifting out to Upper Boon Keng. 4th Overseas trip to some Asia country, Korea or China. 5th Wake up my idea and work hard. Woah thats alot of things to do.. But I do believe the 1st objective is the hardest to achieve. However once achieve it, the rest are just like nothing. So would I have a get start next year.. This will depend on the someone. On when she will be knocking on my door. I be right here waiting. There will be also some other things to focus on. For the 1st quarter of next year. Submission of FYP report on 6 Jan. Term test n semester paper ard FEB Then BB gathering on 11 feb to 13 feb. And thats for sure Tennis every tuesday. So when will the someone special to mean knock on my door. I knock on her but she dont response so how. Thats why I can only wait for the response from someone.
Roger so far.
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Need Help | Thursday, December 29, 2005
*Need Help*
Ya need help once again to solve my blog problem. I want to change the outlook which is the blogskin. Want to make it look easier to navigate. So that anyone can see if theres any updates.
She had read my mail for her. But wondering how she feel. Perhaps a positive sign for me?? Or just another wishful thinking of mine. Im also wondering why I can write so much now. These words seem to come so easily Whatever comes into my mind I will just type it in. Thats why its so easily to share on blog.
Tennis next tuesday is confirm on. So will there be any guest appearance?? We shall wait and see.
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Why We Write Blog | Wednesday, December 28, 2005
*Why We Write Blog*
We write blog is because. We had something to say yet we can say it out. We had something to show but no one to watch. We had something to share but no one to feel. Thats why we blog.. As there nothing much better to do. So we blog... For what we wanted to share, to show and to say. To be posted online. For the millions to see. That of course for those we hope they will see. Since our mouth cant do the talking. So we shall let our fingers do the writing. For me, what I had done last time before I blog. To release stresses. I would go cycle, push myself to cycle hard and shout out. If not I will go cool myself in the swimming pool.. At times I may even go jogging. As these will sweat me out. Thus pumps more oxygen into my brain. And making me to think clearer. And got blogger, so just type out how I feel. I feel its better as others can see it too.. Thats it for today.
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Taurus Man | Tuesday, December 27, 2005
*Taurus Man:*
Taurus man is very very stubborn, Ambitious, composed, strong and talks less. When he loses his temper - which is rare - he could be Destructive and violent. His actions are slow and steady and he cannot be Pushed by anyone as he always stand by his own principles. He has strong character, great physical power, endurance And is a homely person. He is loyal and devoted to his family. His romance starts only after he finds that his partner has lots of Qualities which appeal to him. He likes his partner to be Feminine and intelligent. He likes music and art. He is simple person and doesn't like extravagance. He is courageous and dependable and have lot of strength to face any kind of crisis. Taurus men make loving, affectionate, warm and sympathetic fathers.
This is at about 90% accuracy. As this forms up most of my personalities. So this is why I not into any relationships so easily. So thats why I dont like recommedations.. As I want to find the best and only one. Yah I do found one before but had let go. Due to the mindset of getting someone even better. Fate has come again the second time. But I do not know why I cant break the ice in her heart. So dont worry about me. If 'you' had read this, you know what I mean. Not just mouth of words. Its the truth from my heart and putting it to action. Perhaps you could say me stubborn. But thats Ben that you should know. Talking less doesnt mean that Im hard to communicate. Its just that Im observing everyone actions and their knowledge. At times I can be quite Lame and talk alot. Loud voice is what people are used to listen. Only you had ever heard the soft side of Ben. Never ever in my life, that I can be so gentle to you. Wish that you are the only one. As others wouldnt be the same anymore. Ambitious qualities at times make me think too much. I will try to plan your road and even day dream about it. Making it hard for me to let it come naturally. So what should a Taurus man do to melt a Pisces woman. Enlighten me please. Im a simple man however always having a complicated mindset. At time pessimistic even though I look optimistic in other eyes. I do look cheerful all times but sorrow builds in my heart. Didnt dare to reveal any feelings was the worst of me. Building and building and at times suffocating me. Music and Art I do agree I like them both. But didnt get the chance to improve my knowledge in them. Perhaps I even got little bits of Gemini personality in me. Who knows....
As what it had been written. Its not 100% true unless you dont believe in it. Benjamin 20:27 Thou shall not lie.
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Boxing Day | Monday, December 26, 2005
*Boxing Day*
Yeah wake up early in the morning 7am and Im late. I got to reach CCK at 7.30. By the time I left home and onto PIE. Its already 7.24, what to do... Go faster than normal lor. 120 to 140 at times. So managed to reach there ard 7.44. 20 minutes to reach there. Damn gangster. Later part of driving even worst. Imagine Japanese car got to catch up with European makes. Such as Merz and BMW. We got to do the chasing for sure. Maintain at around 100kmh and even at times 120. Thats on expressway. Today really taste the 4 different taste of food. Hot-wasabi Sweet-honey Bitter-bittergroud Sour-Lemon n Lime. This the 1st challenge set. After that is the creative stuffs. Writing I LOVE U on briefs.. And we got to wear it.. Followed by doing push-up while Alex sing a song. Ask Qns about connie, Alex wife. Finally the door is open. Fetch her, took photos and off we go. Back to CCK. Now got the jie mei's in the car. Really forms up a contingent. Again chasing the groom car. And in the end, one of the jie mei's car lost sight. Reached Alex place again. But now took the photos at the driveway. Woah cool.. Will post the pics once I got it. Went up Alex hse for some snacks then buffet. Ate and left... To some place, but haha she is not at home. She never bring out hp. So suana under the hotsun for ard 1hrs. Sweating all over, so decided to go home. Reach home blog awhile then go over to parkway To meet ed, mavis n han. Talk awhile then left for home. And found that my sis's heels had been stolen Relax for a moment and proceed over for dinner Dinner at Tanjong Katong Complex. First time dinner dun need to drive over. Quite good food.. The atmosphere had changed. Unlike the old design. Ended at around 1045pm.. Delay here and there and left around 1055. Still miss the 1st few mins. So today blog shall end here.
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*Another PH Just Finished*
What a lame title I had. Cos dunno what to put on it. Christmas and now boxing day on the 26th. So what had I done on Christmas. Slack awhile at bicycle shop, Then go shopping?? at suntec for ice-cream at Anderson. Which then proceed to Kallang, No Signboard. To celebrate kelvin's bdae. Another one had hit 25. Went over to happy daze at Serangoon Garden Quite a nice place. Went back home and wash car. In the middle of the night at aroung 1145pm Crazy rite.. But no choice, later in the morning helping out Alex. So need the car to be clean clean. Tml morning need to help him still can dun sleep. So got to go now. Going to bath at 1.30am. Seems like Im throwing my life away. What to do, seeming aimless nowadays. Without clear goals in my mind. Without a peaceful heart to cool off.. Without a clear mind to think straight. What am I writing again. Nothing seems to come out right for me. Feel damn cursed by everything I done.
Door So what had I done to suffer all this. Why would a faithful guy deserved all this. Aren't he able to love the girl whom dun dare to love. No matter how hard he had been knocking on the door. She seem to have change a louvre door to a solid core flush door. Or had she change it to a metal door. Making it much harder to hear any sounds out there. No matter how hard the door maybe. Or even changing it to a diamond door. I will still be out there knocking. Keep on knocking till my hands turn bruise, I shall sled blood for her then. Cos I believe faith will take me there. I believe that there will be a time, She will hear the knocking sound. It shall not be hard knocking. Just by constant knocking on it. For my feelings for her remains unchanged. It shall not be slow and doze off. Forever the same beat not slowing off the tempo. Only faster beats will be added next time.
Cheers everyone. And Happy Boxing Day.
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Pink Christmas | Sunday, December 25, 2005
*Pink Christmas*
It is indeed a pink christmas for everyone. Even though some never really wear pink. Everyone assemble at around 1900hrs @estee place. Some are still preparing their food. What we got... Pink Kuey by James. Roast Beef by Kelvin Pink Logcake by me. Ham by Edward Potato Salad by Mavis. Sushi by karen c. Pizza by weili drinks by Han and Yan Fruits and shou tao by estee. Again this year we still cant finish up the food.
Gift exchange.. Everyone perhaps get what they might had wished for. The fun part was the guessing who was the receiver. Giving hints here and there. But it was quite easy to do so as there is only 12 of us. So nothing much to guess when choices get smaller. Okie lah for my gift. It will come handy next year, when I start work. By miss mavis.. haha Thanks for the other present too.. Kel and estee thanks too..
But but but.... I still got a gift left with me.. Wondering when then can meet and pass it to her. So I'll be right here waiting for her response. Anyway its 12 days of christmas, so can give her anytime. It also just an excuses to meet her. But must see how liao lor. As she is getting busier....
Okie, good nite everyone. Have a nice Christmas day. Rest well for Boxing day.
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Merry Christmas Everyone | Saturday, December 24, 2005
*Merry Christmas Everyone*
Write this up 1st before forgetting to wish everyone. Yeah its Christmas once again. Another time of giving and sharing. Bought 2 gifts, one for her and other for the $15 gift. Will be heading towards estee's house soon. For the pink christmas celebration. However its raining now. So I shall stay on to blog.
Zodiac Signs
Does zodiac signs really have similarities to oneself. I do greatly agree with it. For me Im in the Taurus. Stubborn, I agree... An raging bull when provoke, I agree... Family man, artisitc fellow just to name a few..
Stubborness at times may cause people to fail. However for me looking into this topic. I would not say im stubborn, Im just too focus on getting the things right, Thus never wanting to hear any advice from anyone.
Temper of cos I can well control it. Unless theres anyone who provokes me to the limit. Then I say too sorry for you. You sure get F%&@ by me. So never ever push me to the limit.
This is Ben in the Taurus zodiac.
Feeling Tired..
I dunno why my energy level is getting lower. FYP model still not up yet with just 2 weeks to go. Dying off soon.. So many things need to think... So many things to plan... So will someone save me... My smoke bomb has used finished... Cant smoke people anymore... Perhaps tireness causes all these... Come on Ben wake up... Telling myself to wake up...
But how... How I wish my energy booster is around. Just a short chat can prolong my life, My smile and everything I does...
My prayer to GOD Dear God, Do bless me with the strength once again. Give me the powers to heal one's heart. Give me time to prove LOVE. Give me strength to shelter her from danger. Give me vision to look far ahead. Give me an anchor do drop it down her heart. However if these still fail. GOD, Then give me a knife to stab my heart. Give me glue to seals the cracks. For this heart of mine wont get hurt by others. Cos she will be the one I would only cry and die for. No one else will change the place. Nothing will ever change the impact she had on me.
Dont laugh and dont joke about it. Just a simple guy wanting a simple girl to know about this. Perhaps its just the confidence Im lacking in. I got no beliefs in myself and I dunno why. Please God lift up any curse cast upon me. Guide me through this road Im taking. I know its tough and I willing to take. No matter how long I got to walk. How many holes I got to fall, I still be walking. With faith in my heart, Just awaiting for someone's heart to be melted.
Oops this story forget to post. So posting it now. Before writing on another..
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*Thank You*
This very blog extend my thanks to my buddies out there. This will be use to Thank all my buddies out there. Okie name by name and what I thank them for...
Junjie: My friend since 1990 when we were classmate. Had been always a close friend of mine. Able to think in the same way I think. One hell of a great buddy out there. Thank you for being my friend.
Edward: My friend whom I knew during BB days. Great leader to our group and command respect. Always willing to help when you need him. Thank for knowing you.
Kelvin: Another BB days friends where we grew up together. One of the evils in our group. which mostly are evil. The first graduate. A player who go out for wins and play his heart out. Thanks for learning from you.
Hancheng: Army regular. Car siao, just stop recently. Musician and multi talented. Learn his stuffs fast. Intelligent and fast thinking. Thanks for coming back to our group.
Weili: Mr Nice guy. Air force officer. Another car siao. Fast and fierce driver. Getz not enough for him, WRX please. Thanks for the patience you have for friends.
James: Slacker taking a sport degree. Hell of a great writer. visit his links. Another well verse sportsman. Thanks for bringing funs and laughter.
Dexing: Surprise inclusion of him. Self centred thinking personality, Drift you apart from us. Thanks for not been one of us.
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Not Posting | Friday, December 23, 2005
*Not Posting*
Okie I shall not post any blog today. Haha however I still did so by posting these few words. Cos I had just finish writing an email to someone. So abit lazy to blog now, lacking of inspiration. Feeling bits of tireness, kept failing my FY project. So headache need to make so many changes to it. Another few more lines being wrote. Still got elearning to do. CPM and CT. Sian everyone jamming up the server. Damn slow. Dun think Im doing it today cant think of answer to put in.
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Evil Friends | Thursday, December 22, 2005
*Evil Friends*
Backstabbing
One of the famous topic and most people had done subconscious. Without knowing it, they had backstabbed their friends. Normally for back stabbing scenario to appear. The victim tend not to be around. Thats why its call back stabbed. Backstabbing occurs when. 1) Unpleasant stuffs by the victim. -He/she most likely to have said something fishy, which makes his story unbelievable. 2)The pattern and attitude of the person. -The way he does his stuffs which you detested.
Thats why our group at times back stab the failed friend. Too much things to add on here. So its better to put it aside.
So who in this world will we backstab, Mostly friends whom dun click with you and Someone whom you detest.
Will be listing the types of friends whom u will detest.
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Things To Be Done | Wednesday, December 21, 2005
*Things To Be Done*
1) Buy $15 christmas gift 2) Pack up my room 3) Do e-learning assignment 4) FYP report and model 5) Wash Car. 6) Decals to car door 7) Buy bdae present. 8) Do up filing works for dad. 9) VSC duty on thurs. 10) Going out on wed with her??
Theres too much things to do le. Since I got no habit of writing it on organiser. And nothing for me to post on what I done. Which now got nothing to do but wanna blog, So put down somethings which I will be doing.
Pre-planned program for the next few days.... Wed go out with her if not go VSC Hd Conference. Thurs do VSC duty Fri, Ken n Haiyen Bdae celebrations. Sat pink christmas at estee place Sun family gathering at punggol Mon Alex wedding dinner Tue Tennis once again.
This will be the rough plans I going to do. Events packing up as we proceeds towards 2006. So lets wait and see.
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E-Learning Week | Tuesday, December 20, 2005
*E-Learning Week*
From 19/12/05 to 23/12/05 Is the E-learning week in SP. It can also be counted as another week of Holidays. However this isnt so simple for year 3 students. All had to be back in school for FYP. Submission date 6/1/2006. So everyone got to rush out their projects.
This morning got a surprised sms from someone. Feeling was like woah, she had msg me.. On the Sat program to view the magic show. Feeling of cos good lah. Somemore on wed theres a chance to go out again. To buy christmas gift for the $15 present and some other. So who am I buying for and what to buy for the person. Some of the easy one Han and Weili: car accessories. Kel: golf stuffs?? Ed: card holder?? Mavis: some soft toys Estee:?? Yanxi: anything except soft toys Michella: hard on for her.. dunno what to get
So in the end coming back to school now to blog. Ya now im blogging in school. Completed 2 assignments. Measurement and Services. CPM got a write up to do. CT also another write up Estmating also got quiz Real estate another write up. Woah Kaoz, people doing and Im slacking. Typical Ben. Can slack till last minute then does his job. At times I also wonder how I do it. Pressure and stress or just wanna beat the deadline only. Just do and hand it in. Dun wanna think too much into it.
Chalet had been confirm.
11/2/06 to 13/2/06 From Sat to Mon. This will be a major gathering of all XVI and 36th BB members and officers whom we know. Organising and Co-ordinating team for this event. Will be our very own team, Form up by, Edward, Junjie, Kelvin, Hancheng, James, Weili and me. Duties will be sorted out tonight after the tennis game.
Friends from XVI will range from Eugene Lee's group, Jinshun's group and Wengui group
And from 36th will be only from Hongkun's group.
Details of the chalet will be out shortly.
Tennis Game Tonight
Tonight we had played consecutive 4 weeks of tennis. So who says we only play games for awhile. Who said it, Mavis Tan... Come on 4 weeks and we are still going strong. If not stronger each week. After receiving the protocol. Seem that Edward not joining us. Too bad he need to go shopping for gifts. Then we shall enjoy the game by ourselves. The more we play, the better we catch the game. So its a good sign for us.
Okie going off, going home soon. Completed the quiz, go home to do the structured answer. Need to type in the answer. Real Sian.... But today sms had already brighten up my life. So wats Sian for me.
Cheers.
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*Public Transport*
I guess this topic more or less stuns lotsa people. Cos 19/12, Kel, Ed, Han and me had took MRT. Yes Mass Rapid Transport. Stun right, took it for our trip to Orchard Rd. Went there in search for Christmas gift. But for me, I got no one to spend my money on. But should I get something for her? But then Im afraid plans will backfired again. Shall wait and see this wed how it goes. Hope that Im able to regain my confidence once again.
Cos..
Benjamin 3:16, For Ben so loved the girl that he gave his one and only true love. Awaiting for her to believe and lead our lifes together.
Original verse. (NIV) John 3:16 16"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, [a] that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
Benjamin 6:19, Which feeling we have as an anchor to the relations, both sure and stedfast, and which building it onto and for the future.
Original verse. (King James) Hebrews 6:19 19Which hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and stedfast, and which entereth into that within the veil;
Sorry GOD, shouldnt have copied your verse. And change bits and parts to mine. Its just for me to share this 2 little verse. In which I had learn from my BB times. Read on and you can slowly understand. Even though I had not been to any church for a long time. This 2 verse are quite easy to understand.
Amen..
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My Life Story | Monday, December 19, 2005
*My Life Story*
Hope that this wont bored u all out.
Borned into my family in 20 May 1980 And given the name, Sze Yong. In chinese its pronouce as Si Rong. At young age Im very protected by my parents, grandparents and even my aunts. I feel so blessed, to have so many people to showered Me with care.
Been to kindergarden, PAP school at Blk 52 Sims Drive After a few days, becoming more like little beng If I never remember wrongly. I had been punished at school before. Then went to Woodsville Pri for my studies. Never ever got the chance to get into top 10 position. Perhaps never ever study hard at all, Except those subjects which I like. Got a dog in 12/12/1988, that was when Im in Pri 2 This black dog of mine was given by a relative. Which we name it as Ricky. In primary 3, there is a day when my sis and I were late. And dad drove us there using the old car of plate no EX 6072 It happen that ricky nails got stuck and he, a male dog. He bleed. Which then I also bleed lata cos went for dental. She pull off 2 of my baby tooth. Cant forget that very day. Cos I got back my mathematics paper. Guess how much i score.. Its a perfect score. From then my maths foundation was set. Whatever maths question I had was of no problem. Gradually went to Pri 6 and that was my PSLE time. And also the time when I joined the Boys' Brigade After all exams, there was lotsa excursion trip. And always got time to play in class. That was heaven for all of us. But something happen, whlist playing I injured my friend. Sorry friend, I still can remember the incident. Got my PSLE result and can apply for normal or express. Of cos choose express lah, faster also. Again it was maths that pull me through.
Got into Woodsville Sec. And all of us had went to different schools. Still got 1 friend with me and he is Damien. Involved in little fight with David. Cos he actually dare to stole my wallet when he come to my house. Of course whack him up with Ronald. In sec 3 went into the same class as Damien again. Life was fun there. Everyday soccer and soccer. Can be in school from morning to evening. It was then I learn bits of soccer.
Camp Temasek Pulau Seraya, the coy Im in for this camp Together with Ed, Kel and Weili. So you can understand what fun lie beneath. Went to this camp, soundless. Having sore throat, that recover as days gone by. Lotsa tiny matters, From Junjie dropping his moschinno glasses To Dexing keep boasting that his pulau got most girls.
Retained However God isnt so good to me now. I failed my language paper, English for sure. And I had to retain in Sec 3. Retained and that was the worst thing in my life. I had to give up one of my ECA. Tae Kwan Do or BB. At then a black tip at TKD and just a LCP at BB. Choose BB for sure and I never regretted. Cos I joined TKD because of BB. Which at the 1st week in the new class being mistaken as Ah Beng
Hike Competition Went to my 2nd hike competition in BB as a leader of the group. Only managed to use our wits to a respectable 15 out of 40 teams. That was after a deduction of 20% b.cos of 1 guy. He put an aeroplane which all of us will never forget. Just at that very day, I got the instinct that he was at home. So I had actually informed Junjie on the friday night. To call him up on SAT noon. Guess what He was at home, where he say he need to go back Malaysia. He caused us to lose 20% even before we started.
National Camp 1996 Went into this camp through BB and got to know lotsa friends Saw a few pri school mates, Jian Yuan and Debin. Group into Delta Coy with Junjie, With the coy commandent from another BB coy. 3rd Singapore Coy capt, Mr Vick. Knew a few friends there but never keep in contact lata. That was also another point of my life. Junjie and Me had actually thought of going 3rd Coy. Just because Mr Vick is willing to push us up for Founders' Man, This is the Highest Award in BB then. Our Captain to be, Mr Lee knew about this case and spoke to us. We are been talk to at YMCA, 0304 if I never remember wrongly. Talk until we are like traitors then, which we had cried lata. Luckily we never switch just because of ranks.
Sec 4 I passed my English paper and was promoted to Sec 4. It was more of like another honeymoon for me. At this very point of time, I had actually wanting to know 1 girl. She from the same class as Dexing. her name Yan Yuan, Charmanine. Indeed a very gentle girl which I had only saw. Perhaps a crush then, wasnt too sure of my feelings then But I was too slow, girl seem to like those bengs. Should had just go ahead. So loses out before I even had the chance to know her. People thought it will be finish soon with this kind of Guy. But it lasted quite long which groups of us gossiped. However something fatal happen. She died after falling off from her house. Sad case, one seat on the exam hall was empty then. Too bad she died and the chance was zero. But theres one sentence I never forget. If you can pass your English I put my head on the chopping board. Cruel right, thats my English HOD. She look down on me, then I failed my GCE O. Which I of course feel sad why I go and fail it. So after getting the results in 1998. The choices I had is only ITE which I went in with pride
Combined camp 1997 Our captain had organised a combined camp with the church. It was fun and fun. We managed to interact with lotsa them. Then knowing this and that girl... Sparks flies and relationship develop. However this time we got to inform our seniors about who and who. Cos they do not wish to see another repeat of history. Ya I got to know this girl by name of Corrine. She had a sister by name of Catherine. Cat was from the same group with me at the camp. Ya spark happen, and its very same. Cat happen to like Me. But Me like Corrine. And Junjie like Cat. It was like so drama. In the end after been togther with Corrine for awhile, We broke off, because Im seeing my friend distanting away. Which later they got together. Only till recently I got to know the truth. Cos corrine also got talk to JJ, At times complain about me, most likely is not caring?? So the relation for me and corrine lasted from 1/1/1998 to 31/1/1998.
ITE Tampines Learned alot of new things there. Got into the same course as Yaoqin and Quanfu. Got into MEDD 1B, and all is history. Got to know Zhenlong in 1A, when we had our Pri gathering. So near and yet we do not know. Knew a great bunch of friends there.
National camp 1998 & Thanksgiving 1998 This time round went to this camp as a helper. Did nothing much but just to be there to help The cycling segment for the camp. So it kinda easy for me to get my Founders' Man later. Yup, got the highest award on 21st Aug 1998 It was like finally I did it.
National Service 2000 to 2003 Enlisted for my NS in 12 Sept 2000 Report to Tracom for my enlistment. Being posted to the Singapore Police Force. Life was like heaven there. Discipline was slack, everything seem easy. So the days in there wasnt tough. P.O.C in march 2001 and posted to Central Division Got the initial posting to High Court, But ended as a staff assistant to Sgt Admin. Luckily I got a change of in-charge just after 8 mths. Ex- sgt admin came back as a civillian officer. And life changes better. Most of the time can slack. In there Im able to drive police vehicle. But can drive so what. The more you drive the higher the chance of getting accident. And I got 1 major accident and another 2 minor one. So where got nice about driving police vehicle. Finally ORD on 11 Mar 2003.
Singapore Poly 2003 to 2006. Make my promise for my mum, to continue my study. Went and does Building and Propert Management. Learn alot of new things in life too.
Especially for my Vietnam trip. Went over there for community service. Learn not to procrastinate from Mr Ong. Learn to give what I can. It was indeed an memorable trip for me. Kena food poisoning and woah really slim down then. Imagine a ah beng, cos at that trip dye my hair to brown. Cos lotsa things are cheap there.
Then also manage to get another trip to Japan. And cool, thats a very nice place to go to. Went to disneyland, it wasnt only meant for kids. Adults will also enjoy their time there. Looking back to the past memories during childhood. The Jap food is way better than what we got in Sg
Another trip during my poly life. Went over to Taiwan, but wasnt with school this time. This trip is with my buddies. Indeed a fun trip to go to. Shop Shop Shop and eat eat eat. And someone bought a laptop there, With Chinese OS, crazy right, in Sg dun buy.
The rest of the time I spent most of the time sleeping. Ya lah, Sleep in class, what to do.. There wasnt much interesting thing for me to do. However life changes on Aug 2005. Started to get much better cos theres something added on my life. Someone was added into my life. Arrr.. u all should know what I want to say, Its the same as one of the previous post.
Then came Thailand as another trip. Went there with Han and his colleague, Willie and gang. I want the pics..... Life there was shop and drink drink drink. Dead drunk on the last night. Do read the Thailand trip post for more infor.
So now still in poly, How I wish blogspot had started earlier. So that Im able to write more stuffs. Of the happenings I had before. This is the brief part of my life. Wanted to add more but now it seem laggy. This is my life and shall add more next time.
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Right Here Waiting | Sunday, December 18, 2005
*Right Here Waiting*
Oceans apart day after day And I slowly go insane I hear your voice on the line But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never How can we say forever
Wherever you go Whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you Whatever it takes Or how my heart breaks I will be right here waiting for you
I took for granted, all the times That I though would last somehow I hear the laughter, I taste the tears But I can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it baby You've got me goin' CrAzY
Wherever you go Whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you Whatever it takes Or how my heart breaks I will be right here waiting for you
I wonder how we can survive This romance But in the end if I'm with you I'll take the chance
Oh, can't you see it baby You've got me goin' cRaZy
Wherever you go Whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you Whatever it takes Or how my heart breaks I will be right here waiting for you.
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Yeah nice song right. Right here waiting. Delicate this song to the very person. This is what I will do. I shall wait. I believe there be a time for me to melt your heart. Dont laugh at me.. I'm not stupid or persistent to get her, By just copying this lyrics. Just wanted to let her know how I feel. And no matter what happen. Ben will still be there. Cos:
*Nothing Gonna Change My Love for You*
If I had to live my life without you near me The days would all be empty The nights would seem so long With you I see forever oh so clearly I might have been in love before But it never felt this strong Our dreams are young And we both know they'll take us Where we want to go
(Chorus 1) Hold me now Touch me now I don't want to live without you
(Chorus 2) Nothing's gonna change my love for you You ought know by now how much I love you One thing you can be sure of I'll never ask for more than your love
(Chorus 3) Nothing's gonna change my love for you You ought know by now how much I love you The world may change my whole life through But nothing's gonna change my love for you
If the road ahead is not so easy, Our love will lead the way for us Like a guiding star I'll be there for you if you should need me You don't have to change a thing I love you just the way you are So come with me and share the view I'll help you see forever too
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Yah same as the lyrics, With you, my life had indeed been clearer Never ever so clear as before You had indeed left something deep down in my heart. Wheras I never had the chance to do so. Perhaps I never done enough yet. Is it anything I had done to deserve this? Please tell me if you had read this. Unless there something more to it.....
Then this song shall come needy:
*Fixing a Broken Heart*
There was nothing say the day you left I just filled a suitcase full of regrets I hailed a taxi in the rain Looking for some place to ease the pain
Pre-Chorus: Then like an answered prayer I turned around and found you there
Chorus: You really where start (you really know where to start) Fixing a broken heart You really know what to do Your emotional tools Can cure any fool Whose dreams have fallen apart? Fixing a broken heart
I never could understand What you're going to through There must be a plan that led me to you Coz' all the heart just disappears Every moment you are near
Pre-Chorus: Just like an answered prayer You make the loneliness easy to bear
Repeat ChorusBridge: Soon the rain will stop falling, baby So let's forget the past Coz here we are at last
Yah I understand what you mean. You need time to heal the pain. And I fully understand Why do you put stumbling block between us. Ya, this happen so suddenly for me. And I dont understand why became in this way. Just because Im too into it? Come'on, there is a time, You ever say that Im not so enthu into it. Cos at that time I really do not dare. Thats why.. Then when im too into it. You say its affecting my life too.... However now I know what to do. Take my time, slowly and it shall come. But will you give me the chance once again. I'll be waiting.
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*Wilds of Drunkards*
On the17 dec 2005, our group of xiongdi finally went OO. Thats double o, a clubbing place in MS for those not sure. Writing this straight after the event. This very day most meet at Bugis for dinner then proceed Over to MS to party. Went in at 10pm so to get seat for Oldman, Ed. He just wanna seat so to drink and thats all. At first damm sian, so go outside watch soccer. Then nothing much to do walk to MOMO. Not to club but to see my new working place to be. However when I went back to OO, Already saw a few person down. Namely Mavis, Ah Lian (hc friend) and Angdao Mavis: Half bottle bacardi breezer + some little sips from our drinks Ah Lian: 3 bottle of bacardi breezer Angdao: 3 nick plus our drink. So fast 3 gone liao Then James also high up, Kelvin too.. Never see them so high up before. Grace and Yanxi power.. can dance all night long. JJ not kick at all, Hc busy being a caretaker. Very fast 4am struck. Close shop liao, all dancing to stop. Pack up and off we go for supper at Bugis. Fishball noodle. Lotsa story to be said. So just brief facts 1st before adding on.
Car Mod
Finally did something to my car and I had spent $330. Crazy of me right. Would had spent more if the lip is there. Did open pod, hs and cai. Change all front grille into mesh. Will save up somemore money can proceed with some other. Unless there someone willing to be my finance minister. Please not anyone can does this Job.
Criteria: 1) Female staff needed. 2) Someone whom I say thumbs up. 3) Some accounting knowledge. 4) Someone who know what I want. Some of you if theres anyone close to it do shout out her name. If not do keep a lookout for me. I had found someone to it, but she still haven take the offer. So you know....
Stay tune for noon updates.
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Songs of My Heart | Saturday, December 17, 2005
*Songs of My Heart*
Something interesting for everyone to read on.. At times the music you hear from the singer, Which spoke what your heart wanted to say.
When you are single. You seem to be like Jordan Chan. Song title: Shen ah Jiu Jiu Wu
When you are getting married Singer: Jacky Cheung Song title: Ai Shi Yong Heng
When your girl choose another guy. Singer: Andy Hui Song title: Wei Sheng Mo Ni Bei Zhe Wo Ai Bie Ren
When you like someone with BF. Singer: 5566 Song title: Boyfriend
Theres actually much more songs.. But for this short while only think of these few songs. Do give me more inputs to add on.
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Finished | Friday, December 16, 2005
*Finished*
Of cos not Im finished as a man. My Mid-Sem test has finished. What a relief. However from start of today it shall be FYP days. All the way till dateline on 7/1/2006. It seems short so gonna work fast. No more slacking.
Some quotes: When something happens to you, Be it good or bad, Consider what it means There's a purpose to life's event. To teach you to laugh more or not to cry too hard. You cant make someone love You, All you can do is be someone who can be loved, The rest is up to the person to realise our worth . (copied from some source)
As you can see life isnt smooth. There bound to be something happening. Every hour, every minute and seconds in your life. Sometimes it wouldnt be smooth as it turn out bad. So it is to teach us some meanings to our life. Never give up for what you pursue. No matter what happen or fail, Smile. Laugh will be a better way to get pass the event. Soft weeps are allows as we are all human beings. There bound to be tears in every one of us. Loving someone is hard when the other party doesnt love. So if the other party dont love, you can still love her with all. If not, you got to wait for someone else who will love you. That might be hard, Cos the same scenario will repeat. She love you but you dont love her. Cos you already given your love to the 1st girl. So if decision had been made by you. You can either wait or give it up. Then wait for the other party to accept you...
This sounds something familiar. Lets see if I can gain any inspiration out here... Hold on......
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*Pre-Writing*
WTF... now can even write whats going to happen lata?? Actually for me, I will be doing duty tonight. So now before I study for my paper, write out something.. Today paper will be most difficult as compared to the others. Its on Construction Project Management. Nothing seem to flash on my mind. Once today paper is over it will be FYP times... Got to slog hard for it.. It will be hard.. Model half done and report half written. But Im gonna enjoy this Sat. OO.. knows what, thats double O..lame rite. Go clubbing with xiong di. Wondering if someone will appear.. Hopefully this will be a stepping stone for me. To build on more things, of cos some party must be willing.
Tomorrow might have a change to spend some money. Provided the price is right for me. Wanna do some changes to the appearance to the car. People will think its a waste of money. But some think otherwise.
Complicated Thinkings
Happen to got a chance to give an answer to a question. On who is more prettier. Guess what I dunno how to reply. A pics of 2 girls. 1 of them i know, the other her colleague. So she ask.... After looking at the pic, there be an answer. Depending on which type you prefer. However for me not to make her think otherwise. I had given an answer of. 1) your friend look like small woman needing care from man. 2) your look like woman who can withstand storm. Before I could finish the words. She said: See guys like this type of girl, need protection. Actually at that time I wanted to say she is prettier. Then after much consideration I dun say 1st. It might not be good. Cos... 1) She might think that I just sweet talk, very fake. 2) And some reasons, not good to post out. Why? Ben, sweet talk girl only not investigation. Think simple why go and think of so many links to it. So next time dun think too much then say.
Just Like: Hancheng and James, playing scissor paper stone. Han: I put paper. James will put paper. His idea is to go for a draw. However people like me think other... 1) He say paper, so he think I put scissors and he will change to stone. Which he will win. 2) However to counter his thinking I put a paper which will be a step higher. And he might have a chance to lose unless he think a step higher. So You see.. play this game also can think so much. Think simple like James and you will be fine. BTW most of the time James won the game.
Okie pen off. Good Luck to myself. Good Luck to my friends Good Luck to everyone who read this. Good Luck to my family, of course. Good Luck to Her...
God Bless You All... SMILE
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*Destiny of Oneself*
How do we shape our life?? Leaving it to fate aka destiny? Or do we had to stand out and fight for it? This seem to be a diffcult question for everyone.
If one left it to fate and when later fails. He will then blame it on fate rather than himself. However if he try and fail at least he does his best.
So fate can be quite a joke to someone. At least to me. Cos for me I dont seem to haf faith in fate. Which I trust if Im not working hard for it. I will bound to lose out. To someone who might be better. Ya thats why I say might.
For me, I believe that once my fate came. I shall treat the one and only with the best. I do hope Im able to shape up my own destiny. However I will still leave it to fate. What meant for you will be yours. However if it doesnt, no matter how hard you fight. It will still be zero.
Writing this earlier cos i'll be doing duty tomorrow night. Thats why penning down something earlier. Sometimes ideas ran out and theres nothing good to write. Perhaps do injects me with new type of feelings. Cos feelings of one's heart can touch someone. They will know how you feel and hows your heart. They might be of some solution to your problem. And they are your friends. Your true friends, they will be more than willing to lend, Their listening ears for you to pour out.
Friends In this living world, other than our parents, relatives And those running the same blood stream as yours The very next group of people will be your friends. As what I had said, they will be your motivator, comfortor, teacher and others in your walk in life. However there may be some unpleasant ones. So let it be, where in life everything will be perfect.
Luckily for me in my life. Im able to meet a bunch of great friends out there. And I shall not hesitate to name them out.
The closest group namely BB group aka XVI Consisting of Edward, Junjie, Weilik, Kelvin, Hancheng and James. Including me thats form the seven of us. We had grew up together in form of BB. When at that time we spend the whole of Sat together. The kind of bonding is thick. All will be more than willing to help you in times of difficulty.
The other group of mine will be the ITE group. Jacky, William are the closer ones. Perhaps we are staying around the same area. The others are also friends whom at times had distant apart.
Pri, Poly and Sec only has a few close ones. However some had lost contacts (Pri) Aidil the only sincere friend (sec) Jeremy in the Poly. These are the few friends whom you can talk to.
Friends are always important. You may need their help here and there. Be it small or major matters they will be there. And remember these words. Treat them with sincerity. If not you will be outcast.
A failed man (read in chinese) As what our initial group of 8 to be reduced to 7 now. Just because we feel that his thinking isnt the same. Never be selfish, try to do your part as a friend. Cos everyone has eyes to see. Ya indeed you do not need big bucks to treat your friend. Just those small little things you done will be appreciated. Too bad hes already out.
TBC......
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Who Is The Special One | Thursday, December 15, 2005
*Who Is The Special One*
I have often wondered who that Special One is. To share my joy and sorrow, To love and support me, And be my soulmate. And I know the special one is YOU. (copied from some source)
It has always been hard to find the special one. Everyone in the world are just plain normal beings. Nothing much of having special powers. A special one is someone who gives you a special feels. Someone who will make you wonders. She can turn your life upside down with just a word from her.
Being the someone special by your side. No matter what evils she done. You will just ignore it, casting it aside. For what you see are just the good side of her. No matter what flaws she had. You will just wait for her to change. For you are waiting for her to change for you. No matter how long you got to wait. You will just wait for her. For she is the only special one for you.
That why the special one brings out yourself. No matter what sacrifice you had to made. You will be making it willingly. No Regrets ever.
For me: Just wishing that my special one will come. Thats her whom I hope she will be. Wondering if I still got any place there in her. Thats only to seek the answer from her. Even the answer is not sought. Here am I awaiting faithfully. Just for her, thats for sure. She is worth for the wait. Cos you never see anyone better than her. Perhaps LOVE had blinded me. Or just another plain stubborn Taurus. Who will seek for the one and staying focus. Ever targeted, heart and mind will not change. Still patiently waiting behind her.
Even now I can be the man beside her. Im more than willing to stay behind her for now. Always supporting her and trying to cheer her on. For this is the least of things I can do now. So friends is it so easy to have a change of heart.
So DLS, will it be a place full of girls?? Will working place makes someone to change. This we shall wait and see.
Stay tune for more stories.... Quite fun writting..
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*Life Turning Sweet*
Ya my life has starting to turn back to a correct direction. Or am I just wrong once again. Hopefully it will start to get better again. For every chats with her makes my life cheerful. What would life be if Im able to see her everyday. It shall be call as wonderful. Sharing your life with someone you love, Will turn all tastes to sweetness. No matter how tough life out there. After seeing someone you love at home. Awaiting for you, putting on her smiling face. Smells of home cooked food laid on the dinner table. Woah, life is on heaven. All tireness will just snap off. Come on wishful thinking once again... For life to turn sweet it doesnt come easily. Hardwork and sincerity plays a part. So may the sweetness in life comes fast. To bring life brighter everyday.
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Running Out | Wednesday, December 14, 2005
*Running Out*
Running out of time seems to be familar in same place. Ya, from my friend's blog, William. Just out of a sudden got this idea from his title. His is running out of time. But this title of mine is running out. Which will mean more things than time.
Time Time indeed is the most important thing in our life. It will never be compensated nor it can be reversed. Time seem to has no logic to it. No matter how fast you do your stuffs, time will still pass. So never let the time control you. Do it on your own pace, dun pressure yourself. So no matter how fast you do time will still go. Just meet the deadline and its more than enough.
Breathe When you are out of breathe, Thats for sure you are turning tired. Not because you are dying. Just because of tireness. Tireness causes your brain to malfunction. Thus breathe is important. To help you keeping your mind fresh.
Chances One of the important factor in life. Once you dont grab it, it just went pass. What you can hope is just to wait for another. Chances are hard to come thus treasure it.
Luck No luck then no matter what you great you do. You just wouldnt shine about the rest. Strike lottery, toto. Win soccer bets. However no luck in love means You remain single. haha thats me..
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 9:30 pm
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*What had I done*
So so.. what had I done so far.. What do I really mean. What had I done so far in my life. Life for me is quite a nice and pleasant one. Except for some hip cups here and there. Some may say Im born lucky or some say silver spoon.
Ya, Im really blessed to have such a nice family. I could have almost half the things I will wish for. All because of the hard work by my parent. They slog days and night for giving us a wonderful life. They had managed to get the so call 5 'c'. Namely: Car, cash, condo, career except credit card. They did this in less then 15 years. For what I think its already a great job done.
Imagine if, 1. I never repeat my sec 3. 2. Never went to ITE. I would have gotten my degree with Kelvin. And I would be working for about 1.5 years. Things will be much simpler for my parents. They will be able to work much lesser and enjoy life.
However things dont go as smoothly as you think. Thats why now im still in polytechnic, luckily graduating soon. This is life and determination pushes you on. In life you couldnt just work, you need enjoyment. You need to go out and see more things, more stuffs. Hence you can implement it into your life.
Now Im lazing around awaiting to get back something.. And that is Motivation. With this little word plus the determination, You will be able to scale any heights that seem impossible.
With truth that we will be shifting out. Had made our life quite busy for doing up paperworks. However with the fact that we are moving to a new place. Had mad it a little sweeter. Life will be changing for me. Will be moving back to HDB.. so ppl can see me as equal. Feeling at times tired. Hoping someone is there to help me out. With some little words from her to lighten up my life.
School I had finish my 3rd paper and left with 2 more to go. Awaiting for the last paper to come fast. But FYP submission coming fast.
Sports With much determination and discipline. We had played 3 weeks of tennis. Not everyday. Its every tuesday. Yesterday, all of us had improved. More strokes going over the net. Next tuesday there will be another game. Theres suggestions for basketball on thursday. Whoever ons please inform JJ, he is co-ordinating. Finally we are able to see some more sports.
New House Theme What is the latest theme now. Simplicity, complentary, vintage Any ideas to input in.. wanna design something nice for the new house.
My Own House By the time I will to own my house. I'll make sure this will be a heaven for me. I'll make a room for entertainment. -42" TV equip with home theatre system. -Bar counter . It will be a place for screening of movies, place for loud music with liqour and wines to go along. This will be much for relaxing oneself after a hard day. Thus do not need for cinemas and clubs again.
How I wish someone will work this out together with me.
Okie end of story and dreaming. Shall rest for awhile before I continue later.
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2 down 3 more to go | Tuesday, December 13, 2005
*2 down 3 more to go*
What a day again for me. Prepare the paper in the morning again. 2 paper had just went pass. And 3 more to go. If tomorrow paper can score well, then I can slack off. But I will not if Im going for my DIST..
2 down and I should be happy. But I still cant which I dunno Y. Never knew that my friends do read up my blog. Thanks and keep the story to yourself. Im okie so dun worry for me.
But indeed after some times the feeling thus seem better. Better doesnt mean forget. This time round, There wouldnt be someone sharing the joy of mine.
Quote: I hope that this match never end, when it end memories begin. By Ryan Giggs, soviet titus commercial
Same as what I feel. How I wish I could stop at that day. That very saturday, we are out together for a movie. Time flies fast and if you dun treasure it, It will just whizzs pass. Ya time go pass fast. Within a short while, its 7pm and we are going in. After awhile the very movie ended. And we will be going off soon. Went for a short window shopping. And we actually went and meet some of my friends. I was quite surprise that she is fine with it. Went over to join them, listening to music while enjoying Our Ice drinks. 11pm stuck just in this way and off we left. Saw some photos and sending her home.
How I wish that the very day never ends. Cos this very thing seems to be going in a nice way. The time togther with her flies so fast. How I wish for more time then. But you know it couldnt, theres only 24 hr a day. How did I know what happen later.
Once she help me to hold the camera. I say: Let me take. She say: Take what? I say: Camera lor.. She say: Not my hand meh??
How I really wish I can hold tight of her hands since. But I couldnt.. cos shes just kidding? or is she real. But I do wish for this day to come again. Like what I say a year or 10 years I do so. I will remain truthfully and single for her. Awaiting for the day shes willing to accept. Just to waste another wish again this christmas. But this time round I know what and who to wish for. So that 2006 V.day n my B.day I wouldnt be lonely again. I would have someone to share the days with me.
She just wish me luck for my paper. Of course I will do well for her. I will do a perfect score just for what she said. Good luck and we will meet after your paper. Hopefully she dun break my heart later.........
Cheers friends and Ben Carry on to do well for your papers or other undertakings. Bless those who are sick, sad and injured. Bless those worrying for their papers. Bless those for their commitments. Bless your family. Bless everything related to you.
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Overseas Trip | Monday, December 12, 2005
*Overseas Trip*
Very fast I will be completing my studies at SP. And I hope to have an overseas trip before I start work. Had went before 1. Jakarta (Indon), 1997 2. HongKong, 2000 3. Ho chi ming (Vietnam), 2003 4. Tokyo (Japan), 2004 5. Taipei (Taiwan), 2004 6. Bangkok (Thai), 2005
so, 2006 where to go any suggestions??
crazy rite, now having papers still can think of going overseas.
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Again | Sunday, December 11, 2005
*Again*
As you can see me blogging means i haven start to prepare. Prepare for my paper lah. Cos cannot concentrate so log in n blog lor. So sian, head n mind still cannot focus.. Dying soon if I still dun start. Or perhaps start tml morning. 3 hrs for 3 topics start studying at 9am?? and take the test at 1pm. This is how Ben study.
*Tender*
What is tendering in construction? There is a project by a client, so the main contractors will submit in their bid for the project. Stating the cost and the during they need to complete it. So what do i really wanna say. Tendering for construction work = Tendering for one love? It does have some similarities. 1. The girl is single and thus people will start to notice of her. Of cos the girl is the client in construction line. Which she will publicise on the project. Of cos in love line, she never publicise. 2. Guys will start to flock into tender for this project. All showing the abilities and capabilities in bid for this project. Of cos all are to be in some standard. 3. Finally the girl will decide on one of the guy. So for the love construction to continue.
Haha you might be thinking this kind of thing Ben also can relate to construction.
Actually this was wrote yesterday. But today adding something more before posting it.
11/12/05
Meeting start. 2120hrs. Pink Christmas had been confirm. Each has offer to bring different kind of food over. Log Cake, Ham, Pink lemonade, sushi, wine and shou tao?? Shou tao for christmas interesting rite. 2245 meeting ended.
12/12/05
Completed my very 1st mid sem test. Advanced Construction. Not too bad. Study in the morning and went it n whack it. Manage to complete the paper but dunno can score anot. Wondering why I never prepare the day before?? Watching soccer lah. Man U against Everton. I dunno why I totally no mood to study for my paper. Later then pack my notes for tml paper. Estimating and costing. quite a siong 1 to do.
FYP
Haha, fyp poster had done up le, with help of Mr Tan ST. making changes to it, really make it look nicer. For the next 3 weeks got to chiong all out. If not sure die off.
Car Modifications
Since I had no money for someone to spend on. So can do something to my money le. If confirm the damd kit from car beauty is 380 then I most likely will change it, if not i will just add a lip. then do up open pod, heat shield and CAI for 200. If real this value i will do it. Let me spend the money.. hahahaha.. Going nuts liao.
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Preparing to Start | Saturday, December 10, 2005
*Preparing to Start*
Yah perhaps an hour later I will start preparing for my term test. So for the time being I need to shrug off my unnecessary thoughts. Thats why you can see me penning down my thoughts again. 5 papers for the next 5 days starting from 1. adv construction technology. 2. estimating and costing 3. adv measurement 4. building services III 5. construction project management II By hook or by crook I need to do well for all these papers. all at least 70% which is for me to maintain at least b for some subjects and for no.3 got to push myself harder to get around 90% mark. But now all of these are still blank in my mind so it might be hard.
Now I got to put away the feelings of my heart and start to concentrate. Its very hard but bo pian got to do so, if not sure die 1. after term test the FYP is another crucial thing.
Feelings of my heart Wondering if there is any other competitors or am I thinking too much. Dear friends, I dunno whether will be an act of impluse for me to do such decision. As im prepared to wait, be it a year of 10 years. Crazy of me right? But I dunno why, cos my mind ask me to follow My heart thoughts.
(copied from some source, not accurate) The more I know you, The more I like you. The more I like you, The more I want to discover about you.
hehe only remember the 1st few sentences.
Perhaps lotsa people may see me as a fussy guy, whom will be searching for someone very perfect. But they are absolutely wrong. Ya of cos, I wanna find someone who is present looking, some looks which you wouldnt feel bored looking at. Then of cos get to know the person better lata,
Even now if you can find someone whom a hundred times prettier, gentle than her. The kind of feelings I had will never be replaced. She had became someone whom I will cry for. someone who will make me smile for than I had for the past 25 years. I dunno why she had made my life more cheerful, more higher tempo and of cos my heart beat faster than any other time. And I had actually kept of diary of my times with her.
For then had made me realised that I had fall too deep into it. I'm not able to open up myself to other options Even when theres better one knocking at my door, I will still see is it her, if not the door is still closed.
So you can see when I do not wish to go into any relations for the Past 7 years. Fear of rejections, failures which lead to broken heart. And when I thought that fate and chance had arrived for me, I thought its the time for me to give all out. Who knows I had poured out too fast and it had backfired. Just hoping now I had a chance to proof myself once again. Dun see my age being younger than her and seeing me as a student. Where history may repeat again for her. For what I had said is not a promise or a vow i tried to make. To make her believe that theres true guys out there. But its a feeling which I wanted to pour out for. For someone whom I wish to care for the rest of my lifetime.
So how long can a man live 70 years?? that left me only 45 years or even lesser for me to care for someone. Im even prepared to reshape my route of life just to make her feels security in me. 1. Not thinking of going overseas to study for my degree. (which i hope so in getting it and signing on for SPF later) 2. On not going to gain exposure in the outside world (just go back bicycleshop and be a small boss) which for no.1 is that i just wanna siam my reservist call up. no.2 im afraid im not able to cope with the works out there. Perhaps love is blind. I think God, Buddha and Allah had really played a joke on me.
*For those who still dunno me. Ben is an emotional guy. I do weep, even though I can Put up a brave front in-front of all people.
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 3:39 pm
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*Have or Have not*
Do I still stand any little chance to let her feel , What I really feel and wanted to do. Today have one of the longest talk/chat since a long time. I seem to have lotsa stuffs to tell her. But time is short, she meeting her friends for KTV. Really hope that time can be much longer during our chat. Okie lah shall not be too greedy. Can chat is more than enough for now. At least she still know of my presence.
Wondering if she had anything on for Christmas eve?? If she would like to join us for the Pink Christmas. Anyway we had start to talk and can try to ask her le. Whether she is coming anot will be up to her.
Contract Signed For those who still dunno, I had already sign a contract With DLS, Davis Landon and Seah, a consultant firm. Pay is still not too bad for a Dip holder. 1.6 nia.. After deducting here and there wouldnt have much to spend. 1.6 less cpf 20% = 1.28 1.28 less transportation 150 = 1.13 1.13 less parent allowance 400 = 0.73 0.73 less insurance 110 = 0.63 0.63 less meal 300 = 0.33 0.33 less hp and internet bill 100 = 0.23
left with roughly 230 what can I do with so few left. 230 x 12 = 2760
This what I can save up after a year. Guess that I got to do some part time to up the figures. if not my millionaire dream will be gone. Cos I need 360 plus years to save this amount. I cant even help to pay up some of the loans of my dad. 1.6 x 12 = 19200 Im still a long way to my 1st credit card. 1.6 if increament is 200 per year (2.5 -1.6)/200=5 years. 5 years later then I can get my 1st credit card.
Anyway its still a long way to go. 3 more months and I will grad liao All the way...
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Start of Term Test | Friday, December 09, 2005
*Start of Term Test*
Very fast 6 weeks in my semester 2 in my final year 3 of studies. Just went pass so suddenly and now im on the verge of Having my term test very soon. Ya. It will be next week. 5 papers in 5 days seem to be quite a pressure for some people. But I feel that it will just breeze through easily. After that it will be e-learning and submission of FYP. After that can more or less declare im graduating soon. Oops still got spinovex to go to. Pressure mounting up.
Offers Lotsa freebies now for whatever things you sign up for. Compaq computer for maxonline signup 29 inch TV for SCV. This cheap offers where to find. Anyway I had sign up for the maxonline. And I'll be getting a new laptop le and Benq to my sis.. haha
Enbloc news. Valuation for my dad's prpoerty will be done up very soon. And most likely will be shifting out around end of next year. So whats my dad plans?????????????
Love story So what is it for me now. It has been weeks that I only sms her. And sometimes she called, didnt got the chance to chat long. But I feel good as im able to slowly build up the feeling for her too.
Car modifications I think i will like to do something to my little blackie. 1. Wondering if to do a damd kit or just add on a front lip. 2. Then do up open pod, CAI and heat shield. 3. Change the guage to the black face. 52mm or 60mm. -> volt, vaccum to be change (any sponsor) 4. Stickers to the side door -> Aplexi (filter). summit (strut bar) any other names to add on?? 5. Interior lights for the passenger side, or 1 exterior 1 just like weili. 6. Sound systems??
How I wish I can get these as my christmas present.
tbc.....
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 10:21 am
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Who has read my post | Wednesday, December 07, 2005
*Who has read my post*
Had been wondering who has been coming online to read my Blog. Some whom I had known? or someone else. Do leave a name at the EPL talk. So I could know who had been giving support for me, My Rubbish...
So how had I really had been thinking all this while. I think I had made up my mind.. Which is to wait for the fate to come. Of cos 100% into it. Unless theres someone coming in at end of 2006. But I will still wait, cos i think the feeling left in my heart. Had already suppress someone who had did so in 1998. This feeling is much more stronger this time and I dunno why.
After this few weeks of thinking.. I can be sure of myself of my feelings. This is for sure real for me but not too sure on the other party. So what can I do now is to slowly keep in contact. smsing her once awhile, awaiting for her to call me up. I really hope that March will come fast. When both of us will be in working society. It will also be a test for me. If I will change heart so easily.
My own story... For me, actually quite fond of some girls during my walk of life. Till now there seems to have quite a number of them. Some tried, some untouch and some failed. Im not fussy over the selection for a gf, estee's mum tot otherwise. Im just looking for someone who is presentable and able to communicate. Not hard right.
Will add on if theres any interested to know.
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2nd week of Dec | Monday, December 05, 2005
*2nd week of Dec*
Very fast we are into the 2nd week of december. Ed and Kel had left for Indonesia for work. James b-zing studying Hc going back to work. Weili also at work. So I will have more time for myself too. To study for my upcoming term test. With the 1st 1 starting this thurs. Mind and brain are still as empty. Nothing of this semester lectures had been stored. Guess I got to start early this time rd.
Now our group start to pick up sports once again. Is it because of Kel as he is back in Sg. This time round really hope that our sports will last. Tennis again tml, even if we stop tennis got to make sure we will do the next sport right away. So what is the sports that we are able to play at. 1) Tennis 2) Badminton 3) Table tennis 4) Cycling 5) Golf 6) Squash 7) Jogging (is it a sport) 8) Roller blading 9) Basketball 10) Soccer 11) etc... pls suggest....
Every game can play but none an expert in. Perhaps we arent pushing ourselves to the limit of physical. Play awhile start to get tired, how to play nice game right.
Everyone are invited to join my buddies with the games No registration required, just bring along yourself and the stuffs needed.
En-blocking.. Sad... no 5 room flat for my dad Cos he got private investment, which is the condo im staying at. So got to settle for the 4 room flat instead. Went for flat viewing last sunday and 4 room is really small. Smaller than the condo im staying in now. 90 sqm onli, no utility room, 1 toilet lesser le. The new room Im getting also getting smaller but no choice. New flat came of cos stay in the new 1 lah. It will also be nearer to the new shop. Guess that got to make calculations right and make the money work for us instead of slogging hard for it. It will be a chance for us to turn liabilities into assets. With proper allocations of the compensation done. Very fast by 10 years all will be our assets, earning hard cash for us.
10 year time. (hopefully) Most likely my parents will have retired All property own by my dad will be fully paid. which is the condo, flat and shop. And for me... Hopefully I would have my own flat. Getting turnover for bikeshop as high as a million. Earning higher profits where work time are lesser. Then invest on more properties and making them earn for me. Do more business sidelines so to make a million for myself. A millionaire by age of 35 will it be hard or how about 40. At then I hope that someone will be sharing this joy with me. I guess U all should know who liao ba.. hopefully lor.. Dunno will it be my dreams or will it be my plans. As dreams are just plain thinking. Wheras plans are proper thoughts to do the stuffs.
Will it be dreams or plans are up to me Will there be someone to share this dream with me. Still waiting for the someone to say so.
Thats all for the time being...
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Fresh new month | Friday, December 02, 2005
*Fresh new month*
Yeah Nov had just pass and we are into the 2nd day of Dec. For what I wanna say is that time flies. You Dont grab it and use it well U will miss it. It shall never be recover and never it will be compensated. BTW, I had been offered a contract by DLS, a consultant firm. So fast haven finish diploma can get my job.
Misery kept showering upon me. Projects cant work, some part of life still cant get straight. What has happen?? The God of suayness had cast a curse upon me. Nothing seems to went right for me. 5th week of the term has passed, which I still dazing ard in sch. Nothing seems to be kept in my mind. Only painful memories are still around. Alt-Ctrl-Del doesnt do well for me. Cant delete off the memories of mine. Perhaps this is the reason, misery anchored down in my heart.
I tried to open up, I tried but I failed and failed miserably. Nothing seems to be erased from my 486 system, My mega storage machine for history and statistics. Getting really sick and tried of myself and I dunno Y. Perhaps I shall seek some enlightenments from the greats.
After reading these few lines, you might already wasted time, Looking at these rubbish which I had wrote. Stupidlity and foolishness had make a fool out of me. Nothing seems to went real right for me. Why would I bother to plan which in later cause misery upon me.
So... So... What should I do?? Is it an act of rashness? Or had I let my heart to lead the way?
Please tell me, my friends tell me a way.
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 6:21 pm
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