I guess this thing might had happen to some of you before. But never guess that this has indeed turn my day upside down. It happen on 30th Nov when I should be preparing to go BKK. Wake up quite early in the morning to surf soccernet 1st. While chatting with one friend. Cos cant finish packing the stuffs and still having headaches.. So dun feel like going liao. I was thinking of saying, You dun go, I dun go too.. Then receive a call from Grandma, She said, Granddad seem not feeling very well. Asking us to go over to see him or drive him to doc. So I was assuring my mum that nothing will happen. Cos I will be going Bangkok soon, when Im back Granddad will be fine then. Then at ard 0930hrs the news struck. My mum called from shop and said that my Granddad has pass away. At that point of time Im on the verge of taking a lift from Edward to Changi. All of a sudden, everything changes.. Jovial mood to the unexplainable kind of feeling. I felt lost, I dunno what to do. Msn my friends that I cant go BKK liao, too much things to do..
Drove over to pick up my parents and sisters. Then we proceed over to the undertaker shop at Kallang Bahru. One stop service shop by someone we know. So at least everything will be done up nice nice.. Went over to punggol after we settle with the undertaker. When we reach there, granddad already been cover up.. At then I broke down again. The pain was so immerse. Thinking, Oh God why.. Why cant we hear his last words. Why change my day to a 100% different mood.
Paper works, blah blah blah took up half of the day. By the time we reach back from doing the reports n booking Halfday already gone. Too many things ought to be done. Before dinner, one prayer and thats the last time I ever see him again. Cos the coffin was closed up then. Broke down again. Then at nite few xiong di come along. JJ, Ed, Weili, mr Lee n mr spider also turn up.. Always there's some insensible guy doing some ridiculous stuffs. Shall not elaborate here. I guess those who are present there will know what I mean. Some times we really dun understand why we got such a friend. Are we cursed?? or we being kind..
The next few days pass very fast. And sunday came too soon. We will be sending my granddad for ceremation at mandai. The sky start to rain.. Seem that the whole thing will not proceed until it stop raining. Immediately after I kneel down and pray to him. The rain just stop. Even I was stunned. Reaching there, perform a small ritual and the final part came. This time the kind of pain was so unbearable.. Till I lost control of myself. Fist clenching, crying.. I had scared the hell of my mum and aunt. Trying to calm me down.. Simple it seem on surface.. But how would they know how I feel.. The pain seem to be in me for years to come.
Collection of the ash in the noon Also have so many to follow. Sending it to the Foo Hai Ch'an Then packing it into the urn. With us placing the bones of the head. Before sending it into the 'condo' All I can say is pain, real pain..
Things end on sunday. Monday was still on leave. Then dad fall sick sudden. And my sis n I work till evening. In attempt to allow some rest for my dad. Recover from fatigue. And manage to get a high turnover for tat day. Guess its a blessing from my granddad. For a sudden my sis willing to help out. The tough work needed to do the job. They also dun mind.
This was what had happen in the past few days. And this very entry took me a long time to write.. Other updates shall be done later..
Roger so far..
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 11:20 pm
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