I guess it shall be the longest marathon which i will ever take on. It will take me at least a year to complete this distance set by , the official. The 1 and only. 3 weeks of warm up session then to 3 weeks of stage 2 warm up. Finally I got the chance to start my run. This very run started on the Wed and I could barely start my run, cos its just a mere 25 min slow jog. Wondering if I got any good start. Finally got a chance to sprint downhill, which is only a kopi and hokkien mee time. but its a real precious time for me then. Then went for for a longer sprint, which also lasted for only a while of movie, music lounge. Another sprint for a session of kopi and chit chat at YD. then just normal jog along the street of loneliness and finally abit of downhill again. a same chit chat session at YD then normal jog again. how long can a shopping session last for a downhill and again back to normal jog again. then next few times of worrying competitors overtaking me. What to do.. for an runner making his debut run.
how i wish to take up this run years ago if not for any set back. 1. going to NS so dun dare to commit. 2. mind is still on the previous sprint that i took before. 3. hoping for more options 4. my friend had run before this race. Then the very next year, found that the run had closed and so got to wait for another day to come.
Finally after a few applications for the run. Approval had been granted. But dunno why theres a few hurldes to clear.
At time running too hard and started to pant abit cos thinking of ending this run early from all competitors but I cant. Cos I fell, cramp and even pulled my hamstring and im barely jog a km. It really hurt my heart cos feeling this race would be all over for me. Really hope for a morale booster from the official. This official had given red and yellow card to some fellow competitors, but dunno why always feeling there will be a black horse chasing in.
Thats why....
Only 3 times of short sprint upslope. Then..
Today again felt a slight pull of muscle on the tight. becos of thinking to have a hard run up the slope.
Whocares.. Im going to carry on with this race of when i can only be crown for the title next year in dec. C a long run rite...
But the hurting part is the official to ask me taking part in other races too, which I really dun wish to.
what to do, my supporters please show me any way. I want to run this race with faith but it isnt enough. Am I too obsessed now in only thinking to win this race of my life. Confidence start to run low.. but still having to pace back my breath. I know that there will not be any shortcut route to win this race of mine.
So I will just hope for my little chance to come and faith for me to run this race confidence to overcome obstacles and all skills to finish this race.
Thanks pal for reading U will be wondering how come Ben had become like this Cos I hope I can be crowned the title for this race by the official. Bo pian this might be only the motivation factor for me. Very fast a few weeks of preparation for this race, it already been about 3 months le and i had not even finish my 1st KM.
So I dun not wish to be pressured into completing this race fast. Cos I really hope something of mine can help me win this race even though it will be a very long 1 for me.
Crazy rite for me nothing to do and write all these stuffs. cos putting it in my heart makes me feel terrible. I had already had my misses during my life from sec sch till ite to ns n poly now. So I do not wish history to repeat again for my misery
Is it that I had causes misery in someone life, which led me to suffer in sorrows and pain now.
I dun mind sharing out here le...
1997- sec 4, like a girl, but dilly dally missed the chance and which she died a few months lata. 1997- combined camp, 2 friends like 1 girl, in the end both never get. 1998-the one during christmas, dunno why i back off. theres a few more created chances from friends but dunno why i backed off gradually maybe always feeling im anit good enough. okie this is roughly what i had forgo.
And may my background theme represent what i wish to do.
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DeviLbiker 3:16 at 2:30 am
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